to know and to understand thing..

Alhamdulillah, I've understood something again..

for every little things that happen to us..

for every what we need to do..

for every things that just happen to us..
the happy one,
the sad one..

for every decision that we need to make..
the smaller one,
the bigger one..

is always based on Allah..
hanyalah untuk mendapat keredaan Nya...

it looks simple isn't it?
maybe some of us had already learn this thing since small at school and by our parents...

like me...
the 'me' on my childhood is always a little girl with shyness..
with many thought that unexplainable...
every things happen surrounds me seems interesting and weird...
it just like I'm entering another world...

and the thing like 'what i need to do next' will never get crossed my mind...
because at that time I'm always have my mother around that can always answer most of my weird question...
all over and over again...
without bored she answered that thing...

and I realized when I'm still a child, things to be learn is always easily to understand...
it's just like a sponge that absorbs the water...
I bet most of us is the same like me at that time..

here,
the 'me' right now is kinda lost and always in confusing...
sometime the thing that I've already knew before can be something that I just understand and realize right now...

that's the differences..
to know and to understand..
it can't reach our heart..
with the thing that we know but we can't understand it...
because there will be an interruption of the information that we just get...

it just like a student that only memorize things inside the book right before the exam,
but when it comes to practical, none of the thing she read comes out to be present...

yes,I'm talking about myself...
things to change...
InsyaAllah...

with that,
I came to understand that when things come that makes me unsure and confused,
I need to refer back to Allah...
the One who creates me,
and the One that understand me the most...

kerana hanya Dia yang Maha Mengetahui atas setiap perkara yg berlaku...

p/s:
Alhamdulillah,result sem lepas sudah keluar..
hanya padaNya ku panjatkan kesyukuran..
sebab kalau nak diikutkan memang undefinable nak jawab exam yg lepas...
it's too unexpected question...
memang berserah sahaja...

Alhamdulillah, mungkin result ni juga sebagai ujian untuk menyedarkan bahawa saya bukan keseorangan dalam berusaha...
Allah sentiasa ada memberi petunjuk :)

here we go again

assalamualaikum...
long time I've left it without written here..

it's really a long time for everything to settle down..
I mean most everything...
the new sem..
and here it approach me closer..
the pre clinical exam
which make most of the student a bit trauma and got some acute myocardial ischaemia...

I'm not sure what to start..
but Alhamdulillah,things are getting better..
my emotion,my spirit..
it's kinda stable right now..
no more angina pectoris...

just for reminder..
for myself and others..

sometime kita rasa ada kekurangan dalam hati ni...
rasa lost..
hilang jap...
cuba review balik diri kita semula..
is there something got changed...
sometime kita tak perasan sesuatu tu berubah...
tengok2 memang hilang..
(bukan hide-and-seek tu ye...)
cubalah kita dekat kembali pada Allah...

kadang2 kita rasa kecewa..
bila kita rasa dah buat yg terbaik untuk sesuatu tapi tak dapat juga...
then,nak give up dah...
takpe,tu semua memang normal as human being...
tapi InsyaAllah ingat yg ni..

semoga sesuatu yang kita dah hilang atau kecewa itu,
Allah akan gantikan ia dengan sesuatu yang lebih baik...
InsyaAllah rasa tenang...

kita selalu dengar ayat ni kan..
(saya la yg selalu dengar tu)
tapi tak semua dakwah tu terkesan dalam hati...
lain orang,lain cara sentuhan hati pada Islam...

InsyaAllah,sebenarnya jalan pada Nya tu sentiasa ada,
cuma kita saja yg selalu menolak...

cuma saya rasa kalau bukan sekarang,
bila lagi saya nak berubah...

semoga kita semua tetap diteguhkan hati dan pegangan pada jalan yang diredai Allah...