a missing

it was missing.

missed from it place.

missed from where it supposed to.

from my heart.

that spirit.

that confidence.

buried down inside.

unknowingly it was lost.

suddenly.

i'm not sure

am i able to dig it back.

and find it.

and treasure it

before it lost again.

forever.

tired

tired.

exhausted.

I need Allah.

to guide me the right way.

and stop loving this dunya too much.

picture source:brotherhood arts

let your faith be bigger than your fears

i'm still stand there,
at the same spot,
thinking should i move forward or not,
what would happen there,
if i'm making a move.


the chance,
to grab,
together with the risk,
am I brave enough to take it.


and without realize,
the time had becoming shorter,
to make a decision,
or else it will gone,
forever.

but I saw everyone had start moving,
leaving me,
will i be here forever alone,
asking myself,
which one was prefer to,
is it to take the risk,
or to be leaving.

move forward is the best decision i guess.


when you have Allah, you have everything.
without Allah, you have nothing.


Allah,please show me your guidance.
in whatever things i do,
you know what best for me.

picture from: brotherhood arts

understanding is a process for you to reach something.

semalam, masa case discussion of a patient, doctor ada tegur kami semua sebab kami selalu memorize things..

"don't memorize, but understand the process.

how the patient can get the symptoms,

how the pathogenesis of a disease,

it always a process..

so, when you guys understand and relate it with the disease, then you can remember better"

understanding is an important thing in our LIFE.

why?

let's relate it in our LIFE.

understand is a process for us to clears the vision,

and reach our target.

when people understand why they live,

for whom they live,

who are they belong for,

what they should do in life.

InsyaAllah, they can face any difficulties,

and they can reach their goals.

"Maka apakah kamu mengira bahawa Kami menciptakan kamu main-main(tanpa ada maksud) dan bahawa kamu tidak akan dikembalikan kepada Kami?maka Mahatinggi Allah, Raja yang sebenarnya; tidak ada tuhan yang berhak disembah selain Dia, Tuhan yang memiliki 'Arasy yang mulia."[surah Al-Mu'minun, 115-116] 

jom kita revise diri kita.
sudah faham kah diri kita tentang islam yang sebenarnya :)

because this is not the end..

smile.

it's gonna be good

at the end.

and if it's not good,

that will not be the end.

live your LIFE

put hopes to Allah.

He's listen.

believed in Allah.

see it with your heart..

things that you've seen, may not be the things you see..
things that you can't see, maybe the things you're not able to see behind it..

how do you see things in your life?
how do your view reflects the objects?

we learn it in physics,
that when the light strikes an object,
it will form an image and that image will be reflects in our cornea,
thus that views will come to our brain and the brain interprets it as a view.

if there is damage on our nervous system from the eyes through the optic nerve,
or if there is any lesion on the brain that involves in interpreting the image,
that's when the medical doctors says you can't see properly..
that's what involves the nervous system and the brain..

what about the heart?
how does the heart involves in our view?

"that's doesn't correlate .."
(most of those who learnt in science and anatomy may says that)

the brain was able to interprets things, mostly a logical thinking..
and mostly it can only see things that have a surface view..
while the heart was able to feel the sensation,
and that's how it can see from the deep view..

let says,
in a tragedy where the house was burnt, and the mother was safe and at outside of the house..
then suddenly she remembered that her small child was inside the house,
most mother will come run back inside the burning house,
trying to save her child..
doesn't she knows that the house was burning and dangerous to her?
she knows it..
but because the love for her child,
she's trying to save her child.

the brain was interpreted "hey, it dangerous, don't come back to the house"
while the heart says " my child was in there, i must save him"..
and usually human tends to do what the heart tells..
the heart was able to give you a surge of energy flowing through you unconsciously to do the things that looks impossible.

that's how important our heart was..

so, how do we view our things by the heart?
you, yourself knows it already..
it's already there inside your body..

how do we views, how do we action..
mostly was instructed by our heart..

that's why it was so important for us to cleanse our heart,
so that we will able to see things properly
and the truth views of The Greatness of Allah..
may we able to see it..
InsyaAllah..

everything was here..
takes time to ponder..
takes a view by yourself..
everything around you..
the skies, the trees, the earth, the wind..
and the component inside your body..

may you see the important things in your LIFE

'views from my room in Sg. buloh'

Subhanallah :)

i won't give up :)

expression-less

if only i can express myself well,
things will not be too hard, eh?
doshite?

this expression-less face can sometime be useful,
but sometimes it can cause more misunderstanding for others.
how to have more expression?
do i need to learn it from the anime?
=_=

random thought tonight before a new posting begin tomorrow..
here comes the child world in the paediatric posting..
but, the examination is still hard like the others..
it always give me a post-traumatic and cardiac shock.

this is me after the examination

epilogue of prologue

all those who play on the field will have tasted defeat,

there's no player in this world who had not lost before,

however,

the BEST player will give everything he's got to stand up again,

the ORDINARY players take a while to get back on their feet,

while LOSER will remain flat on the field.

-Darrel Royal,former American footballplayer and coach-

(taken from Eye Shield 21 manga)

today was not one of my best, but still the experience teach me the best.

be strong, start running forward yuzuki. 

don't get trap inside it

your past, presence and future.
that is the period of time which all of us will be experience.
it also will be a period of time that people may trap inside it.

your past.
people may experience at least one big sad memories from their past which give them scar till now.
some of them may not be able to break and past over their past and being haunted by it till now.
but some may be able to.
those scary, sadness and hatred past,
when we keep thinking about it, we will go no where.
it will only makes people to be more weak.
thus, the first thing to do is let it pass and be forgiving to those that give you that scar.
forgive them is the best solution and you will realize that to hate someone is very exhausting thing to do.
said to yourself every night before you are going to sleep, "i forgive all those people who makes me sad, angry and miserable today and may Allah bless all of us".
if we had lost something or someone that was so precious to us, don't forget to pray " may Allah give me a better thing than this lost".
InsyaAllah.

your presence.
everyday we keep on experienced more and more things to be done, to be responsible to, to be more mature in our action and others.
in some point of time, we will get tired of this and just to get over with it we do other thing that we think may help us to forget the burden, but at the end bring us to have more problem.
some time, when we have a problem, we think that, "oh, my life is over", "i shouldn't do this and that", "now i just felt to sleep forever" (eh, is it exaggerated? =.=)
but we forgot that, before we experience this problem, we've experienced other problem that we once said the same thing like we said now.
and we forgot Allah is the one that help us solves the problem when we felt like "this is the end".
so, when you felt those feeling of hopeless, helpless, useless (and other less) remember, you still have Allah, the One that who still with you all the time.

your future.
everyone had dreams ( i guess at least a dream of to not get fat, though i eat a lot  )
sometime, we always afraid of the future.
we afraid if we cannot achieve our goal,
afraid of the result,
afraid of those doctors (is this consider?)
afraid of tomorrow.
but remember who is the one that hold our tomorrow?
it is Allah.
we may be say, " i will certain to do those things tomorrow", but we forget to say "InsyaAllah".
so, put our hope and trust  to Allah, to give us chance to improve our self and cleanse our sins.

so, our past, presence and future had been made by Allah.
to let it be in a good or bad way it's our choice.
don't get trap inside of only certain period of time and not moving anywhere.

use our past to help us be more matured in our action,
use our presence to use it wisely and to improve ourselves everyday,
use our future to hope that Allah will give us the best and chance to cleanse our sins.
InsyaAllah..