Monday, December 27, 2010

the ending and the beginning

yoshi!!

tamatlah sudah saya study

untuk sem ni je tapi...

belum exam lagi...


macam pantun pulak...
okay,cut it out...

the main point is....
1. this blog dah bertukar kulit/skin/layout/what-so-ever-people-call-it

2.this sem sudah pun melabuhkan tirainya....
rasa sekejap sangat....and at the same time banyak unexpected things happen....
things dah study banyak..tapi information yang betul betul glued on my brain ni macam sikit je...(adoyai)

3.this december pun dah nak berakhir...semakin tua lah saya....
walaupun nak diikutkan muda lagi...ecece.....

4.exam will be start in another 2 weeks...
rasa macam tak cukup je nak revise semua...tapi still lagi leisure golek golek atas katil,haissh...problemo betul..


rasa betul betul kena berubah ke arah lebih baik...
change for good,
it worth,right..

and yes,
for that thing to accomplish,
it really need quite a good effort,sweat,sweet, and spirit..


p/s:
i do also hopes that i can totally switch off the dark and turn on th light...
em,macam pelik je ayat ni...
okay abaikan...








exam's study week mode:
turn it ON.....

                                             maybe i'll really change like this in this study week's mode
                                                                           (wish me not)

Monday, December 20, 2010

off


it come
on and off
if i can chose to switch it
i chose to
switch it off
from the start
i knew you

so,no more rewind
on the past..

if i knew forgetting is harder

you right there
there which was so far away from here

Sunday, December 19, 2010

i'm gonna make it


i'm gonna make it
i'm gonna be strong
to reach it
the aim that is waiting for me to give it a strike...

no turning back
to the past
that already left
though it is pain..

it will all be worth
with what had happen

if i can make it
right now
which will lead me
on the future..

as long as tomorrow is still there
for me
to still have the hope

i'm gonna make it
to be more stonger than before

i wanna keep the tears
not to flow right now
but until the goal is reach
then i will allow it

to keep the pace constantly
till the end of the race

i'm gonna fight
in this battle

not just waiting for the goal to come
but to run to it

i'm gonna make it
InsyaAllah...

Sunday, December 12, 2010

a reflection...


saya memang bukan seorang yang kuat...
saya akui saya lemah...
selau terjatuh.....
selalu cuai....

saya akui saya bukan bijak....
memang sejak kecil lagi saya selalu blur...
selalu tak paham....
selalu malas nak pahamkan....

tapi saya ada suatu kekuatan....
yang saya baru sedar sekarang....
which is.....
saya tak kan cepat mengalah...

saya tau setiap usaha akan ada hasilnya...
walaupun lambat sedikit untuk dapat hasilnya...
saya akan cuba sesuaikan diri dengan surrounding
walaupun susah....
tapi saya tak kan give up.....

saya sedar semua ini Allah beri pada saya....
daripada seorang yang tiada ilmu,Allah beri saya ilmu...
daripada seorang yang tiada arah tuju,Allah beri saya tujuan hidup ini....
hanya untuk mendapat keredaanNya...
saya memang tidak mempunyai apa apa tanpa pertolongan Allah....
tiada apa apa...

daripada seorang yang lemah,Allah beri saya kekuatan...
dengan ujianNya...
walaupun lambat untuk saya faham Hikmah di sebalik ujian tersebut....
ada kekuatan yang saya dapat dengan ujianNya...
dan saya rasa beruntung kerana bukan semua orang dipilh untuk menerima ujianNya...


"Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan dengan kesanggupannya"

InsyaAllah,
saya cuba buat yang terbaik dalam hidup ini dengan apa yang saya ada sekarang..

Monday, December 6, 2010

shock (with a very long explaination) =.="

"a picture can describe thousand of words"

some thing can happen unexpectedly...
and when that time occur,
normally our brain can't form a response to that stimulus at that time (unless you have a very good connection between the neuron and can speed up the response with the stimulus simultaneously)
but a reflex may be occur.....
a situation like the above picture....

or in a simplest word from a very long explaination...
it is a SHOCK...

actually what i wanna say today is some thing that happen to me unexpectedly just now....
and I'm consider myself still in a shock situation.... =.="

oh,no worry....
this shock is just a simple shock....
and I think it may be resolve after I take a nap and eat a bunch of food....
and after saya pengsan dengan sengaja.....

apa berlaku ada HikmahNya....


p/s:
this shock is different from
haemorrhagic shock,
hypovolaemic shock,
anaphylactic shock,
and toxic shock..
(which all of them is a medical jargon for shock)





okay nak sambung pengsan balik....

Friday, December 3, 2010

hidden inside


"We all carry sadness with us
but we hope for a better tomorrow
I wonder to what extent we can love a world
gripped by fear, thrown into unrest? "

-Hanabi lyrics by Mr.Children-







everyone have something hidden inside...
that not all people can see it..
even with a closed one..


fear to get hurt again, 
we tend to close our heart, and start to build a concrete wall to protect it..


yet,trying to smile and improve ourself to a better one...


but
the past is already left,
and what left in front of us is a future...
a future that need to get care of,
so that it will be something that valuable...
rather than nothing...


and YES,
kita memang selalu diuji dengan pelbagai dugaan....
untuk menguji kesabaran dan keimanan....


apa yang berlaku pasti ada Hikmah-Nya...




p/s:
test petang tadi macam tak buat dengan baik...
kena improve lagi....
and kena usaha lagi rasanya....
adoi....
tidur banyak lagi...padan muka saya.....













Sunday, November 28, 2010

Parents -they only One for each of us-


Alhamdulillah,
laptop dah dapat treatment and hope after this dia x meragam lagi....

I learn again something tonight....
after a long long time x dengar tazkirah about parents...
rasa macam baru tersedar balik....

from the tazkirah,
I learn that our role with our parents had been change....
as they grow more older,we become more stronger,

if yesterday they are the one that be a doctor to us,
now if we just spent some of our time to talk and look on them, they already happy...

if when we're child, we felt like everything we're doing is the one they told us to do,
now sometime they can't even remember what they want to do as they became forgettable..

from the one that can carry us and hug us when we small,
now they are the one that need our help.....

though the situation and the role had been changed,
and as we become more independent,
always remember that they are only one parent for each of us...

the one that always loving us,
always wanna look us happy,
the one that try their best for their child,

and how bad they are,they only one of parents you'll have....

though they are angry on us,scold us...
it's all because they are loving us....
it's better to have someone that can scold you for your best than being ignored.....

sometime we just need to kill our ego,
and just say sorry to them,
on whatever mistake we're doing....

if they had done something bad,it's all between them and Allah...
we as a child just need to pray for them and take care of them as our role to be son and daughter....

maybe some will say,talking is easier than doing...
it's true....
but we better say sorry to them right now,
hug them now,
create the memory right now,
and do our role as a son and daughter right now....

before it's too late to say so....

p/s:
buat peringatan untuk diri yang sering terlupa...
no offence...
sentiasa doakan mereka walau di mane mereka berada....

Saturday, November 20, 2010

emergency post

salam...

maybe around this week i can't keep blogging and blogwalking...
need to repair back my laptop...
something going wrong with him....
maybe he's got some infection of virus and bacteria...


thanx a lot for everyone of you that give support to me...
also thanx for the award by alexa yussida and feez-cucuatokaji
kalau ade kesempatan,i'll try my best to do the entry about it... \(>_<)/

and for the tagging by purplekyu, i'll also try to do it....

so,hope we'll meet again after my laptop got all the treatment and drug to kill all the virus that cause the inflammation and his infection...haha....

keep on healthy and keep on ur smile :)

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

precious moment


'There're times when strangers are like family,...........' by Hlovate,Rooftop Rant...


some quote that i think enough to figure out what i felt right now....
nothing much actually....

menghilang beberapa hari yag lalu untuk mendapat pengalaman baru...
masuk kampung and belajar cara hidup kat sana....
dapat mak ayah angkat untuk beberapa hari sepanjang menjalankan aktiviti khidmat masyarakat...
and they are really really good to us...

eventhough what we're doing there is just a medical check up,
but then,it's really a good experience and an exposure on how to deal with real patient.....

i'm responsible to take their blood glucose and blood type....
easy enough actually....student sekolah pun boleh buat sebenarnya.....
tapi tengoklah tangan menggeletar ke tak masa mula mula nak buat....
of course lah....tangan manusia tuh,bukan tangan mayat.....
hehe...
tapi masa mula mula je lah....
lama lama okay dah....

and what important i think is communication skills...
there,u will learn how to talk with a real patient.....
ingatkan senang,tapi susah jugak sebenarnya....
but then,that's how the process of learning works...

dah balik kolej, rindu pulak kat mak ayah angkat...
rindu kat masakan mak yang sangat sedap.....
memang makan bertambah :D
rindu kat ayah yang cool..hehe...

maybe this is one of my precious moment that i'll really appreciate.....

Sunday, October 31, 2010

get up and start running back..

the road is still so far before it can reach the goal..

(picture from google)

salam...
Alhamdulillah,things are getting better...

sometime,when things are not going so good,
you just need some vacation to release it out...
(and for me,vacation tu balik kampung je...)
jumpa family jap...
then,you'll feel ease and calm....

and of course,what we should do is to refer back to Him...
hanya dengan kembali pada Allah,hati akan menjadi tenang...

for me,
sometime life ni macam berlari merentas desa..
(boleh ke example aku macam ni?) =.=

maksud aku...
memang perjalanan kita masih jauh untuk kita berlari ke penamat...
but then,
if you are doing it consistently,
and believe yourself that you actually can do it...
then you'll really can do it....

maybe, sometimes kita akan terjatuh sekejap,
rasa haus sekejap,
rasa nak pengsan sekejap,
and maybe rasa malas je nak teruskan...
of course all that things can happen masa korang semua berlari kan?
(sape2 yang tak pernah berlari tu tak sure lah pulak) (-_-)"

sama la macam life...
sometime kita akan rasa down sekejap,
malas je rasa....
(lagi2 kalau takde mood nak study)

but, always believe that, 
if there is still time for you to do it,
just do it...
teruskan je...

maybe we can slow down the speed...
but, don't stop at the middle...
do it slowly and maintain it..
(tetibe rasa macam tengah ajar cara berlari jarak jauh pulak) =.=

life is like that...
don't stop doing what you are doing...
(kalau benda tak baik tu stop la)
move on and believe that you can do it....

kesabaran tu penting...
dan sentiasa percaya Allah sentiasa bersama orang2 yang sabar...




Wednesday, October 27, 2010

missing in action


something is missing...
yes,i'm sure of that...
(bukan pensil tekan,bukan lecture notes,dan bukan juga homework aku)
or is it someone is missing?

i can't sort what is it...
but it makes my heart in pain when i'm thinking of it..
can this thing let me go?
it makes me in burden..

Allah,
if this is one of your test for me,
help me to be strong..
help me to successfully handle this..
i'm not strong..
i admit that...

please,help me to forget this..


i don't want to get down easily with only this thing..
i have other responsibility to myself and my family...
hope this kind of feeling can just passing by in my mind..
and come again to visit me next time..
when i'm ready enough to face it..


p/s :i need a strong spirit right now..
(it's not ghost spirit that what i mean okay ) (-_-")



got ample of notes to read,and it's really 'great'.. =.=

Sunday, October 24, 2010

rindu :)

yes,rindu...
nak dengar balik lagu nasyid raihan and hijjaz..
tu je...
tajuk post nak sentimental pulak kan.. =.=




p/s : tolonglah sape2 nak tolong aku siapkan homework PBL(problem based learning) ni x??
problem2...
mana semangat aku menghilang ni? gi jalan2 shopping mall jap kot....jap lagi datang lah....
okay,da start mengarut malam2 nih....baik aku pegi siapkan homework tuh.......

Thursday, October 21, 2010

tagged : "25 things about yuzuki "

salam..
today,i've been tagged by mika..

okay,stop tengok lecture notes yang da tengok aku balik nih..
buat lah tagged nih jap..

antara syaratnya:

  • cipta title sendiri (so,title nyer is '25 things about Yuzuki ')=.=
  • 25 perkara orang lain tak tau tapi kena tau (tau tau je sendiri..hehe :P)
  • tag 25 yang lain (sape2 yang lucky..hohoho..)

25 things about Yuzuki 

okay,let's begin~
1)the name yuzuki came from yamaha + suzuki = yuzuki   (logik ke? eh,ape ape je lah ea...)
2)japanesse meaning of yuzuki's name is "tender moon" 


3)reason mula2 buat this blog is....er,da lupa da..nanti jap ingat balik..

4)i'm expression less person...and someone who really can't express her feeling really well..   (the best expression i can have is when i woke up in the morning and bila dapat makanan yang sedap) =.=


5)i like simple things macam.......er,macam apa2 barang korang yang korang rasa simple...ha,,macam tu lah...

6)i do look like a quiet person only if people don't talk to me...

7)i'm a student with a complex mind and have my own views in different perspective....(ehem,puji diri sendiri sikit )

8)sometime i can immerse in my own world when i just look at the beautiful sky,the tree,the sunshine,the leaves..(kesimpulannya,i really do like nature)

9)dulu time sekolah,ada kawan cakap saya macam cartoon.....(hurm,sekarang dah tak kot.....sebab saya da matured) =.=

10)me in the past is quite different with me right now (sekarang lebih banyak cakap and can talk in front of people...dulu segan2 je...)actually sekarang pun segan lagi,cuma kurang sikit....

11)people do always thinking me as a serious person until they do really know me when i start a joke...

12)sometime i appreciate time when i'm alone.....rasa sangat dekat dengan Nya....

13)i'm definitely sure i'm not the type of romantic girl.........hurm,genetic abnormalities ke ni?okay,ape2 je lah..hehe... =.=

14)selalunya yuzuki akan post entry kat blog nih seminggu dua kali.....(mungkin akan dikurangkan sikit blogging sebab sekarang dah start busy with study)sorry...

15)i kinda like japanesse drama and movie......(nih pun kena kurangkan jugak...huhu....)


16)i'm not a person that people can gossip me with someone as i will become like naruto bila dia mengamuk......

17)right now,i should complete my homework which need to be discuss tomorrow....haissh... (T_T)

18)actually nama blog nak buat tajuk "aozora no namida" which means "the tears of the blue sky"  (tapi tak jadik lah letak nama tuh...nanti semua yang masuk blog nih,nak nangis je... :P)

19)i do learn japanesse language by myself....tapi da lama tak teruskan...cuma paham2 sikit je lah bila dengar lagu and tengok movie jepun.......hehe...

20)i do like anime......tapi saya bukan otaku...... best kot baca komik.....(naruto,eye shield 21,fullmetal alchemist,yakitate japan.............)

21)actually i kinda an art person....(betul ke??) tapi tetibe je masuk bidang sains....okay je...hehe....

22)prinsip yuzuki is : not to get down when you faces on hard things...get up back and show your courage  to faces that thing.....jangan cepat putus asa....fighting!!

23)buat masa sekarang,i just wanna do the best for myself and to make my parents and my family happy and proud of myself...(okay,pergi study sekarang yuzuki........) =.=

24)maybe i'll face the reality of this life in my next year of study...

25)tak tau tulis ape lagi........anything yang korang nak tau lagi,try tanya lecturer then dipersilakan keluar daripada dewan kuliah...hehe...gurau je...


tahniah,sebab berjaya baca entry yang panjang nih sampai habis (yang mungkin bored nih...) =.=
clap clap...
so,i tag another 5 lah...(yang lain sape2 nak buat,buatlah ye..)  (>_<)


that's all for today....kesian sekian,terima kasih..


Saturday, October 16, 2010

yes,i do miss them a lot..

do you still remember when we run happily together, friends?

missing you,all those that i known as friends..

actually tadi tetibe schoolmate post those pictures in our old school days..
it just makes me miss all of them,
memories with them,
and all sort of things that we had done in our 'crazy' time as a school kids..
(though we actually should not be considered as a kid in high school right?)

those memories..
some good..
and some just make me laughing back when it cross my mind..

lagi2 for those yang stay in hostel may have an experienced with 
ponteng prep malam and pergi lah menyorok kat mana2(almari,bawah katil,toilet) =.=

berlumba-lumba pergi dewan makan sebelum dihabiskan oleh mereka yang tak pernah kenal erti lapar(selalunya boys selalu habiskan makanan kat dewan makan..) =.=

bawak walkman waktu prep malam yang sepatutnya tak boleh bawak..
(then,kantoi ngan kawan2 sebab diorang panggil and i buat don't know sebab volume walkman yang kuat)hehe..

budak kelas yang selalu fight with boys
(bila fikir balik aku pun tak paham why nak fight..tengok tengok after school baik pulak..hehe..lawak je zaman sekolah ni) :D

and yes,ada istilah senior and junior yang memang tradisi kot..

pergi riadah petang yang selalunya ended with pergi koperasi ramai-ramai beli aiskrim sambil gossip..
(riadah sepatutnya menguruskan badan,terbalik pulak apa yang kitorang buat dulu..) =.=

pergi bilik study then after bukak buku terus tidur kat situ..
(bila pagi terpinga-pinga, why am i here in this study room?) =.=

tengok bola ramai-ramai time world cup..
(hehe..tak boleh blah betul..siap mintak izin pengetua "kitorang nak tengok world cup jugak..kenape boys boleh tengok kitorang tak boleh pulak"ask one of my friend yang agak otai...nasib baik pengetua aku sporting) :D

i do missing each one of them a lot.
and everything is just a memorable time..
sometime we never knew that what's going on at that time can makes us laughing when we thinking back of it later..

maybe some of us have not a good experience in high school time..
but for me,
it do change me and makes me appreciate more on what i having right now..


eventhough we are not together right now..
and get separated by our own path to reach our own dream..
but those time that we had been go through in the past..
makes me a person right now..
and i'm not regretted meeting all of you guys..

thanks for everything..
i just hope that we all can get success in our life 
and when we will meet again later,we all had grown up as a wonderful person..
InsyaAllah..







Sunday, October 10, 2010

everyday is a learning process

we go through different experiences everyday..

we learn everyday..
and learning does'nt matter your ages,your status,and gender..
everyone is actually always in a learning process..

we learn from our parents when we small,
we learn from teachers when we start our days in school,
we learn from others experience,
we learn from ourselves on what we have go through,
we learn from the natures..

everything can be learned in everywhere we are,
sometime we don't even know that we are actually learning..
and the target of learning is actually for us to get better in ourselves..
it does't matter if you got a really high educational level with a very high certificate,
if your behaviour is so low..

but people always do a mistake in a process of learning..
its okay as long as we recognise our fault..
and try to do a better one..
(hey,nobody perfect :) )

some people may experiences a happy memory,
while some other people may endure a pain experiences,
its all the same actually,
as this world is round and what comes around goes around..

but as long as we can handle and faces the pain experience,
we actually have pass through a step in our life cycle..
and if your experience is really a different one from others,
doesn't it makes you more expert if you faces that kind of problems next time..
may be you can handle it better next time than in previous time..

so,don't let your spirit down when there is something upsetting you..
its okay to crying if the pain is too much,
but don't let it control yourselves,
get up back and face it with your courage,
always know there is Allah with us..

hurmm..
actually i'm not sure why am i suddenly in this kind of mood to talk about this thing..
it just pop out from my mind..hehe..
so,no offence okay..
lets try to achieve a better stage in our life..
and the main target of our life sholud be to Allah..
hanya kepadaNya lah kita kembali..








Sunday, September 26, 2010

hanabi lyric by mr children

Hanabi - Mr. Children (Code Blue Dorama Ending with Translation)

What value left is there
in this world I live in?
I start thinking its all meaningless
or maybe I’m just tired?

In exchange for something I got
I gave up a number of precious things
but it’s not such a peaceful world
that I can lament each and every one.

What kind of dreams should I envision?
What kind of hopes should I take with me as I go forward?
These seemingly impossible to answer questions
Get buried in my day to day life.

If you were here I wonder what you would say?
you’d probably say I was being “gloomy” and have a laugh.
I just wish i could see your gentle smile to blow away my melancholy.

even if it’s a light like fireworks
that can never be caught
one more time, one more time, one more time, one more time
I want to reach out for it.

We all carry sadness with us
but we hope for a better tomorrow
I wonder to what extent we can love a world
gripped by fear, thrown into unrest?

I get choked up on the words ’cause I think too much
I hate how clumsy I am
Yet oddly enough, I hate more how skillfully I can pretend.

Whether we spend the years laughing or crying
time passes the same for all
the future is calling to us
are you, now, hearing it too?

Even though we knew from the start
that we’d eventually have to say goodbye
one more time, one more time, one more time, one more time
and as many times as I can I hope to see you again.

I never imagined that simply meeting you
could make the world seem so beautiful
would you laugh at me for being simple minded?
I want to say “thank you” to you from my heart.

I wish my heart flowed fast and smooth like water
so that it would not settle in one place.

For all those times when I need to see you
for those times when I’ll miss you so
one more time, one more time, one more time, one more time
I want to burn your memory deep in me.

We all have our problems
but we hope for a better tomorrow
I wonder to what extent we can love a world
gripped by fear, thrown into unrest?

one more time, one more time,
one more time, one more time…

p/s : love this song..
lebih2 lagi yg ade maksud :

Whether we spend the years laughing or crying
time passes the same for all
the future is calling to us
are you, now, hearing it too?

it just have some meaning in it for me :)

Monday, September 20, 2010

things that i need to get serious back..

need to be serious back like this face..


sometime i do realise things are not going to stay the same forever..
every year,the number in my age do increase,
the responsibilities i get also increases,
the hearts i need to care of does increase,
the road i chose and the surrounding does changes,
same goes to my view on this world.. 

but the point is,
I'm not sure does myself got also changes along these things?

it maybe good if what changes inside me into a positive one..
and of course it will be harm for me if the changes is into a negative point..
hurm,but i think I'm natural as I've got both positive and negative point..(positive + negative = natural)
hehe..of course,nobody perfect right?

but what I'm quite sure myself is i do changes in my way to keep on focusing and serious in my study..
it's kinda to negative one...
yeah,my bad.. =.="

WHY??
okay,I'm not sure the answer..but maybe because too much play-play..
too much Japanese drama to watch (this is true)
too much time to sleep (this is not true..hehe..)
my focus has change on other thing (like super junior,and other korean entertainment)=.="

but,
i need to find a solution right now..

yes,a solution..
a solution which can fire up back my spirit to be more serious in study..
which can waking up back something inside me untuk kembali mengganas time study...ROAAR!! (da macam naruto pulak aku rasa)=.="
the spirit that i do felt in my high school year..
i want it back..

so,maybe some changes will be done to get back this spirit..
yes,it need to be as i don't want to stay on weak in this course..
wish me to get success..
and i also hope all of u also can find back the spirit that may had lost (erk,bukan spirit yang roh tu tau..)

all the best :)
InsyaAllah..




Monday, September 13, 2010

Bloody Monday 2


the hacker in bloody monday 2..

okay,before i get start writing on this japanesse drama,let's get start with other thing first..


home alone..
maybe u can say that to a kid that get left out from his family vacation without anyone conscious
that the kid was left at home..

no,it wasn't me..
of course it's not...
as i'm no longer a kid =.="

okay,
but maybe i'm the one the girl that get left out at home for a while because she want to escape from some of question that most of her makcik had been ask..

for example,
"do you already have a special one?"ask Mak cik 1,Mak cik 2 and Mak cik 3..
and she was told to find it right now...what??

the one that i can only do is just smile..

no,it's not that i don't want it..
but it just..
all-this-things-about-heart is quite hard for me..

okay stop that topic..

and here it goes...
now i am watching Bloody Monday 2...
it is a japanesse drama..
and before it get the title Bloody Monday 2,of course it already had its Bloody Monday 1..
this story is about a hacker and how he get involve in fighting the terrorist to save his friends and family...

when i'm watching this,it really can give me some cardiac arrhythmia (abnormal heart palpitation)
as it do have some spontaneous action...
and my brain always thinking who's the one behind all this thing(nak try investigate macam detective lah kononnya..)

overall,
my rate to this drama is A+(kalau aku nyer markah test pun camni kan best)
=.="

that's all...
saje nak promote drama ni..hehe...

p/s :
to all my follower and all the visitor(you-know-who-you-are) :)
saya nak wish..
selamat hari raya!!
maaf zahir batin...

hope that we always get the bless from Allah..

sori lambat wish..
da nak masuk raya ke-5 da kot... =.="

Monday, September 6, 2010

the past..


sometime we need to look back on the past to face the future..
i had learnt something tonight..
things on the past sometime can really give a big impact to someone..
what type of person can someone be into the future,
sometime it depends on how the person face the problem in their past..

is it on a positive way,
or into a negative one..
or just ignoring that problem until it became what it shouldn't..(sometime this is me..heh..)

but,hey..
i think we shouldn't make this life more complex than how it was..
hurm,maybe some of u can try to have my face-without-feeling..(is this the thing that i should get pride on??no,i'm confused..hehe..)

so that,even when u are really get hurt,people won't knew it...
then,at least we won't hurt others feeling..
okay,i think this hand just move on typing without the command from my brain.. (-__-)"
and i think it's better for me to stop it here before this hand get some rigidity which may consider a seizure..
(now i've start writing nonsense)

p/s :
actually tomorrow i really should prepare my head properly before i get blown up by a 6 straight on lecture..
yes..i know it's "great"...
with the fact that everyone is in their hometown right now...
and why are we still here??
sabar2..
mak,nak balik kampung!!
huhu...

Friday, September 3, 2010

hati yang mati..


hati yang sakit dan mati haruslah dirawat..
ketandusan hati,
hati yang mati,
hati yang gelisah,
hati yang sakit,
hati yang kosong..
hati yang bahagia..

bagaimanakah ia??

kebahagiaan hakiki bukanlah terletak pada kemewahan harta benda,namun pada hati yang tenang...

"sesungguhnya dalam diri manusia iu ada seketul daging.apabila daging itu baik,maka baiklah seluruh anggota.dan apabila daging itu rosak,maka rosaklah seluruh anggota.ketahuilah,itulah hati."
(hadis Bukhari dan Muslim)

bila ditunjuk kebenaran,berpaling darinya..
bila disebut neraka,tiada gentar hatinya..
bila disebut dosa,rasa hebat dirinya..
bila dalam sendirian,tidak kembali mengingati pada Allah..

itulah tanda-tanda hati yang buta dan mati..

kenalilah hati kita sendiri...
bagaimanakah ia??

larikah kita pada kebenaran??
tepuk dada tanya iman..

membaca al-Quran adalah salah satu cara merawat hati yang mati dan sakit...
oleh itu,sama-sama lah kita merawat kembali hati kita yang mungkin sudah mati dan sakit..

hati yang mati lebih menakutkan daripada jasad yang mati..
semoga kita dijauhkan dari hati yang mati...
hanya pada Allah kita kembali..


p/s :
badan yang sakit,bolehlah kita bawa jumpa doktor..
hati yang mati dan sakit juga haruslah kita rawat dengan cara yang betul :)

Friday, August 27, 2010

a good day it was...


hope everyday is going on smooth and calm like today...
assalamualikum wbt....
hopefully all of u people always stay in healthy,calm and happiness always at ur side...

today is such a great day i think...
sebab hari ni hari nuzul al Quran...
iaitu hari di mana al Quran diturunkan pada 17 ramadhan..

plus,
hari ni hari jumaat yang ke-3 untuk bulan ramadhan...
and it just rain just now..
di mana waktu hujan adalah antara waktu doa yg dimakbulkan Allah...

Alhamdulillah everything going on smooth and calm today...
dunia adalah perhentian sementara bagi manusia...
di mana ia mungkin menjadi tempat bersuka-ria bagi sesetengah manusia,

manakala bagi segolongan yg lain pula,
ianya menjadi tempat beribadah,
tempat di mana sentiasa mengingati Allah,
tempat untuk mengumpul kebaikan sebagai bekalan untuk hari perhitungan,
dan tidak terpengaruh akan kegembiraan dunia yg sementara ini..

semoga kita semua diampunkan kesalahan dan dosa sebelum ini...
hanya kepadaNya lah kita kembali...

p/s :
yesterday i've got food poisoning...
which is 'great' i guess....
thanx to da clinic,i've got MC and not attend the lab anatomy on that evening,
which i'm supposed to read the lecture notes before enter the class... heh..
da la ramai2 yg kene...
erk,aku agak ramai gak dak yg x datang lab semalam....
sorry Dr...
it's not our fault..
it's that microbes and bacteria in our food fault..
hehe...

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

this ramadhan is a month with full of barakah..


salam ramadhan..

hari ni terasa kelainan daripada hari2 yg sebelumnya...

Alhamdulillah,diri ini masih dapat lagi menjalani ibadah dalam bulan yg penuh barakah..

carilah barakah yg tersembunyi dalam bulan ini...
semoga kita semua lebih dekat denganNya..

betulkan hati dan niat..
kuatkan iman dan taqwa..
kalahkan nafsu dan keinginan sendiri..

menjaga mata dan pandangan..
menjaga hubungan dengan Allah..
menjaga hubungan dengan kawan..

dorongkan diri ke arah kebaikan..

jauhkan diri daripada laranganNya..
persiapkan diri ke jalan yg lurus dan tempat yg kekal abadi..
iaitu di Akhirat sana...
dunia hanya sementara...

we dont know..
if this ramadhan is the last one...

hope that we can collect as much as possible all the barakah in this ramadhan..

sesungguhnya Allah masih lagi sayang pada diri ini..
dengan memberi lagi hidup dalam diri ini..

InsyaAllah kita menjadi hamba yg berjaya dunia akhirat..

Friday, August 6, 2010

invisible me??hope it was..

sometime i just hope to be like them...
wanna be ninja??
WHY??
so that i can learn how to be invisible...
ilmu ninja penyamaran..
less people to face,less problem to face..
btol ke??
okay,at least not to face the probs for a while..
sometime we need time before we can face on something BIG..
(bukan dinosour mahupun elephant)
maybe ley gak tido sepanjang mase kuliah if jadi invisible nih..
(kantoi..)
why wanna be invisible?
less people to face,
less thing to get heated,
less problem get make,
less person to get hurt,
less gossip people have,
less hurt i get,
less burden it is..
okay cukup..x perlu kot aku bersajak panjang2..
entry ni bukan bertajuk less...
it juz things get messed..
n i just wanna shout it here before things get burst..
no worries..
hey,u noe that my face really can hide all this probs..
as it naturally have a-face-without-feeling-and-all-this-thing..
hehe...
it do have advantage actually..
yeah..smile always \(>_<)/
tomorrow is still there..

Friday, July 23, 2010

is it a trend right now??

salam...
semoga kita sentiasa dilimpahi rahmatNya...

 i've been thinking back in these day...
 n i've found something interesting to share...
which mostly we have forgot the meaning of it...

based on perbualan my friend and me petang tadi...
i've a conclusion dat most of my friend and maybe people around us are having a special relationship between boys and girls which mostly people called it COUPLE..

yes,it already become a trend between our friends and maybe ourselves...
n it's kinda make me sad...
as mostly girls don't understand the meaning of it...

when i talk to my friends,mostly said kita tak boleh tunggu guys approach kita,kita pun mestilah ade usaha juga...

kawan2...
apakah maksud USAHA yang anda semua perkatakan?

adakah ianya bermaksud : whenever a guy approach,we just gladly accept because we know at least we having someone dat like us?
or we need to approach the one dat we like before others snatch him from us?
or berusaha untuk dapatkan couple so that ade back up untuk mase depan...

i don't know if all of this ade kena mengena dengan maksud USAHA tersebut..

doesn't the USAHA means that kita berusaha untuk improve diri, hati, amalan dan kebajikan kita agar kita dapat menjadi seorang isteri dan ibu yang terbaik pada masa hadapan?

doesn't that mean, we as a girl kena berusaha protect diri kita sendiri daripada gangguan2 para lelaki?
that's why ISLAM wajibkan wanita menutup aurat..
kerana itulah yang terbaik sekali as a protection for a women...

mungkin kerana surrounding kawan2,ramai yang terikut-ikut untuk mendapatkan couple or partner...
or mungkin kerana tak nak dipanggil noob,nerdy and tak hot....
kita berusaha untuk dapatkan couple...
mungkin dengan bermacam cara lagi...

saya rasa sedih bila difikir semula...
i know that ramai yang tak bersetuju with my opinion...

but majoriti tak semestinya betul...
x semestinya kita harus ikut majoriti,perubahan zaman and trendy...
eventhough we know that majority is wrong,do we still need to follow it?

yeah,it may be a bit hard for a minority to move on..
but we still can move on actually..
dengan ade kekuatan hati dan prinsip hidup yang betul..

we don't need just to follow everyone...
some of us maybe want to couple because we are afraid that if kita x terima guy yang approach kita,rase menyesal..

of course, we as a teenager mesti ade perasaan ingin saling menyayangi..
it is basic thing as a human...

i also have someone that i admire...
but we need to fight that nafsu and godaan syaitan which later become a bad thing us...
don't just follow keinginan and nafsu manusia...

i believe that...
if it is true that he the one i like is the jodoh that Allah give to me, Alhamdulillah...
if not then its okay...maybe i'll get a better one for me...

just move on ourselves to become a better person, then InsyaAllah we also get a better person..
let he goes his way and we goes our way...

kalau Allah nak pertemukan kita dengan orang tersebut itu sememangnya di bawah kuasaNya...
so what else do we need??

perlukah kita berusaha approach diri kita to a guy just because we need to have someone or like them?
this is just my opinion which maybe some of us have forget what is the meaning of USAHA to get a good partner...

to become a better person or not..
it is all in ur hands...

mungkin ini juga adalah ujian yang datang untuk melihat sejauh mana kekuatan kita untuk menepis gangguan nafsu dan syaitan...

so,girls...
berhati-hatilah...
and kuatkan hati dan prinsip anda..

and for boys,
please understand the difficulty for a girl to become a good one..
because nowadays sudah terlalu banyak dosa yang melibatkan perempuan...

jika anda inginkan yang terbaik untuk bakal isteri dan suami anda,
kenapa tidak kita pun berusaha juga buat yang terbaik?

InsyaAllah jika kita berniat baik dan mengikuti jalanNya,Allah juga akan menolong kita.. :)

Thursday, June 24, 2010

bulan kelahiran islam...

picture yg di google..
assalamualaikum
 entry kali ni ialah bulan kelahiran islam...
 link nih : islamic calendar


so,setelah di click pada tarikh kelahiran kita dalam gregorian(birth date yang kita semua guna skang) and ditukar pada tarikh hijri(hijrah),barulah tau kita nih dilahirkan dalam bulan ape...
 and result nye mine in  bulan syawal.

melahirkan,membesarkan, mendidik dan mengasuh anak..
tak semua orang boleh melakukannya..
so,always appreciate what we have right now..
always remember our mom and dad where ever we are..
doakan mereka :)

Saturday, June 19, 2010

i don't noe..

salam... hmm,how should i handle this? okay,do like normal yuzuki... don't put too high hopes, juz do normally what u should do.. sigh, things not always going on smoothly... i've learn dat.. hope tomorrow going on even better.. insyaAllah.. p/s :this is the shortest post since the first entry i post.. cause things i wanna write juz can't come out as what i thought.. just smile although it tough :)

Friday, June 18, 2010

kanashimi

salam.. today entry is, kanashimi = sadness why?because.. i'm tired already.. some of the spirit has already left me... hopefully the one left right now is able to make me stronger... sometime in a time like this,this song will be good for me to hear.. 'chiisana koi no uta' by mongol 800.. somehow it is a japanesse rock song.. which i think it can make my heart shout again... though the song is actually 'bout love, but it is good to hear.. at a time like when i wanna shout,but it just can't... be strong yuzuki.. tomorrow is still there for you.. huh... p/s : i notice that day by day,it is more hard for me to smile... there's a deep hole in my heart right now.. n i don't wanna make the hole deeper..

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

is it alright?

salam.. hopefully sume dlm keadaan sihat walafiat.. tajuk entry hari ni "is it alright?"ape maksudnye agak2? actually aku x yakin nak teruskan berblogging nih ke x.. nape ye tetibe je aku berperasaan camni? maybe sebab aku x yakin..sebab kat sinilah aku nak tulis perkara yg tersirat dlm hati aku nih.. tp bila da cerita kat org laen,cam da x privacy je... maybe sbb aku masih baru lg kat dunia blogging nih,so aku x yakin sgt kot... but kalau boleh aku xnak org laen kenal sape penulis nih...sbb kalu boleh aku harap aku dapat ceritakan personal things kat sini... so,better kalau org x kenal kot... hmm,aku pun x sure ape sbb aku start wat blog nih.. nak diikutkan leh je aku tulis kat diary...tp kekadang kantoi gak ngan other sibling yg terbaca diary tuh.. so,nak selamat malaslah aku nak tulis kat diary,nnt kantoi wat malu je...haha.. tp kalau banyak sgt benda yg aku asyik pendam je,tunggulah x lama lg meletus gunung berapi... ade certain things yg kite leh share ngan member kite,ade yg better x payah... tp sometime penat gak simpan je....seriously kadang2 aku cam berkira-kira(tanpa gune calculator) perlu x aku cerita kan benda yg aku asyik fikir nih kat member,,, huh... tp akhirnya dengan membuat pengiraan yg bijak(tanpa guna calculator lg) aku x cerita pun kat member... salah satu masalah aku ialah it's hard to believe people...tp aku bukan maen suka-suki je x nak percayakan org...but it takes time to build a trust. lebih2 lg kalau kita nak ceritakan perkara yg da jadi sebahagian dalam hidup kita yg kita rase personal... tp aku jenis orang yg kalau perkara tuh aku rase aku leh uruskan,aku harap aku x susahkan org laen ngan membebankan ngan masalah2 aku... tp kat mane lg aku boleh ceritakan?? yup..yg pertama memang Allah lah tempat kita rujuk semula semua perkara... hanya denganNya hati kita akan tenang.... so,mgkin tindakan aku menulis di blog nih adalah supaya dpt share pd orang lain something yg aku mungkin differ from other people... i'm sure everyone that enter this blogging world have their own reason why they start on blogging... but for me,cukuplah kalau aku katakan di sini i'm try to express my own little thing here...the one that i can't express it loudly outside...maybe here is the place where i can shout... SHOUT!! jerit lg...haha...dah...dah... da malm ,kang x pasal2 je dengar orang jerit betul2...wat seram je... akhir kata, maybe hati aku akan masih berkira-kira lg (kali ni pun x gne calculator,gne buku sifir je..haha..) ,is it alright for me to say things here?? tp aku harap ni adalah tindakan yg betul dan bile aku share kat sini mungkin ley kurangkan workload dalam jantung nih (sbb ble da share,kurang la rase risau dan susah hati...kan?kan?) InsyaAllah kalau kita berniat buat something yg betul di jalan Nya,Allah akan memudahkan sesuatu urusan... so yakinlah dengan Nya.. senyum :)

Monday, December 27, 2010

the ending and the beginning

yoshi!!

tamatlah sudah saya study

untuk sem ni je tapi...

belum exam lagi...


macam pantun pulak...
okay,cut it out...

the main point is....
1. this blog dah bertukar kulit/skin/layout/what-so-ever-people-call-it

2.this sem sudah pun melabuhkan tirainya....
rasa sekejap sangat....and at the same time banyak unexpected things happen....
things dah study banyak..tapi information yang betul betul glued on my brain ni macam sikit je...(adoyai)

3.this december pun dah nak berakhir...semakin tua lah saya....
walaupun nak diikutkan muda lagi...ecece.....

4.exam will be start in another 2 weeks...
rasa macam tak cukup je nak revise semua...tapi still lagi leisure golek golek atas katil,haissh...problemo betul..


rasa betul betul kena berubah ke arah lebih baik...
change for good,
it worth,right..

and yes,
for that thing to accomplish,
it really need quite a good effort,sweat,sweet, and spirit..


p/s:
i do also hopes that i can totally switch off the dark and turn on th light...
em,macam pelik je ayat ni...
okay abaikan...








exam's study week mode:
turn it ON.....

                                             maybe i'll really change like this in this study week's mode
                                                                           (wish me not)

Monday, December 20, 2010

off


it come
on and off
if i can chose to switch it
i chose to
switch it off
from the start
i knew you

so,no more rewind
on the past..

if i knew forgetting is harder

you right there
there which was so far away from here

Sunday, December 19, 2010

i'm gonna make it


i'm gonna make it
i'm gonna be strong
to reach it
the aim that is waiting for me to give it a strike...

no turning back
to the past
that already left
though it is pain..

it will all be worth
with what had happen

if i can make it
right now
which will lead me
on the future..

as long as tomorrow is still there
for me
to still have the hope

i'm gonna make it
to be more stonger than before

i wanna keep the tears
not to flow right now
but until the goal is reach
then i will allow it

to keep the pace constantly
till the end of the race

i'm gonna fight
in this battle

not just waiting for the goal to come
but to run to it

i'm gonna make it
InsyaAllah...

Sunday, December 12, 2010

a reflection...


saya memang bukan seorang yang kuat...
saya akui saya lemah...
selau terjatuh.....
selalu cuai....

saya akui saya bukan bijak....
memang sejak kecil lagi saya selalu blur...
selalu tak paham....
selalu malas nak pahamkan....

tapi saya ada suatu kekuatan....
yang saya baru sedar sekarang....
which is.....
saya tak kan cepat mengalah...

saya tau setiap usaha akan ada hasilnya...
walaupun lambat sedikit untuk dapat hasilnya...
saya akan cuba sesuaikan diri dengan surrounding
walaupun susah....
tapi saya tak kan give up.....

saya sedar semua ini Allah beri pada saya....
daripada seorang yang tiada ilmu,Allah beri saya ilmu...
daripada seorang yang tiada arah tuju,Allah beri saya tujuan hidup ini....
hanya untuk mendapat keredaanNya...
saya memang tidak mempunyai apa apa tanpa pertolongan Allah....
tiada apa apa...

daripada seorang yang lemah,Allah beri saya kekuatan...
dengan ujianNya...
walaupun lambat untuk saya faham Hikmah di sebalik ujian tersebut....
ada kekuatan yang saya dapat dengan ujianNya...
dan saya rasa beruntung kerana bukan semua orang dipilh untuk menerima ujianNya...


"Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan dengan kesanggupannya"

InsyaAllah,
saya cuba buat yang terbaik dalam hidup ini dengan apa yang saya ada sekarang..

Monday, December 6, 2010

shock (with a very long explaination) =.="

"a picture can describe thousand of words"

some thing can happen unexpectedly...
and when that time occur,
normally our brain can't form a response to that stimulus at that time (unless you have a very good connection between the neuron and can speed up the response with the stimulus simultaneously)
but a reflex may be occur.....
a situation like the above picture....

or in a simplest word from a very long explaination...
it is a SHOCK...

actually what i wanna say today is some thing that happen to me unexpectedly just now....
and I'm consider myself still in a shock situation.... =.="

oh,no worry....
this shock is just a simple shock....
and I think it may be resolve after I take a nap and eat a bunch of food....
and after saya pengsan dengan sengaja.....

apa berlaku ada HikmahNya....


p/s:
this shock is different from
haemorrhagic shock,
hypovolaemic shock,
anaphylactic shock,
and toxic shock..
(which all of them is a medical jargon for shock)





okay nak sambung pengsan balik....

Friday, December 3, 2010

hidden inside


"We all carry sadness with us
but we hope for a better tomorrow
I wonder to what extent we can love a world
gripped by fear, thrown into unrest? "

-Hanabi lyrics by Mr.Children-







everyone have something hidden inside...
that not all people can see it..
even with a closed one..


fear to get hurt again, 
we tend to close our heart, and start to build a concrete wall to protect it..


yet,trying to smile and improve ourself to a better one...


but
the past is already left,
and what left in front of us is a future...
a future that need to get care of,
so that it will be something that valuable...
rather than nothing...


and YES,
kita memang selalu diuji dengan pelbagai dugaan....
untuk menguji kesabaran dan keimanan....


apa yang berlaku pasti ada Hikmah-Nya...




p/s:
test petang tadi macam tak buat dengan baik...
kena improve lagi....
and kena usaha lagi rasanya....
adoi....
tidur banyak lagi...padan muka saya.....













Sunday, November 28, 2010

Parents -they only One for each of us-


Alhamdulillah,
laptop dah dapat treatment and hope after this dia x meragam lagi....

I learn again something tonight....
after a long long time x dengar tazkirah about parents...
rasa macam baru tersedar balik....

from the tazkirah,
I learn that our role with our parents had been change....
as they grow more older,we become more stronger,

if yesterday they are the one that be a doctor to us,
now if we just spent some of our time to talk and look on them, they already happy...

if when we're child, we felt like everything we're doing is the one they told us to do,
now sometime they can't even remember what they want to do as they became forgettable..

from the one that can carry us and hug us when we small,
now they are the one that need our help.....

though the situation and the role had been changed,
and as we become more independent,
always remember that they are only one parent for each of us...

the one that always loving us,
always wanna look us happy,
the one that try their best for their child,

and how bad they are,they only one of parents you'll have....

though they are angry on us,scold us...
it's all because they are loving us....
it's better to have someone that can scold you for your best than being ignored.....

sometime we just need to kill our ego,
and just say sorry to them,
on whatever mistake we're doing....

if they had done something bad,it's all between them and Allah...
we as a child just need to pray for them and take care of them as our role to be son and daughter....

maybe some will say,talking is easier than doing...
it's true....
but we better say sorry to them right now,
hug them now,
create the memory right now,
and do our role as a son and daughter right now....

before it's too late to say so....

p/s:
buat peringatan untuk diri yang sering terlupa...
no offence...
sentiasa doakan mereka walau di mane mereka berada....

Saturday, November 20, 2010

emergency post

salam...

maybe around this week i can't keep blogging and blogwalking...
need to repair back my laptop...
something going wrong with him....
maybe he's got some infection of virus and bacteria...


thanx a lot for everyone of you that give support to me...
also thanx for the award by alexa yussida and feez-cucuatokaji
kalau ade kesempatan,i'll try my best to do the entry about it... \(>_<)/

and for the tagging by purplekyu, i'll also try to do it....

so,hope we'll meet again after my laptop got all the treatment and drug to kill all the virus that cause the inflammation and his infection...haha....

keep on healthy and keep on ur smile :)

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

precious moment


'There're times when strangers are like family,...........' by Hlovate,Rooftop Rant...


some quote that i think enough to figure out what i felt right now....
nothing much actually....

menghilang beberapa hari yag lalu untuk mendapat pengalaman baru...
masuk kampung and belajar cara hidup kat sana....
dapat mak ayah angkat untuk beberapa hari sepanjang menjalankan aktiviti khidmat masyarakat...
and they are really really good to us...

eventhough what we're doing there is just a medical check up,
but then,it's really a good experience and an exposure on how to deal with real patient.....

i'm responsible to take their blood glucose and blood type....
easy enough actually....student sekolah pun boleh buat sebenarnya.....
tapi tengoklah tangan menggeletar ke tak masa mula mula nak buat....
of course lah....tangan manusia tuh,bukan tangan mayat.....
hehe...
tapi masa mula mula je lah....
lama lama okay dah....

and what important i think is communication skills...
there,u will learn how to talk with a real patient.....
ingatkan senang,tapi susah jugak sebenarnya....
but then,that's how the process of learning works...

dah balik kolej, rindu pulak kat mak ayah angkat...
rindu kat masakan mak yang sangat sedap.....
memang makan bertambah :D
rindu kat ayah yang cool..hehe...

maybe this is one of my precious moment that i'll really appreciate.....

Sunday, October 31, 2010

get up and start running back..

the road is still so far before it can reach the goal..

(picture from google)

salam...
Alhamdulillah,things are getting better...

sometime,when things are not going so good,
you just need some vacation to release it out...
(and for me,vacation tu balik kampung je...)
jumpa family jap...
then,you'll feel ease and calm....

and of course,what we should do is to refer back to Him...
hanya dengan kembali pada Allah,hati akan menjadi tenang...

for me,
sometime life ni macam berlari merentas desa..
(boleh ke example aku macam ni?) =.=

maksud aku...
memang perjalanan kita masih jauh untuk kita berlari ke penamat...
but then,
if you are doing it consistently,
and believe yourself that you actually can do it...
then you'll really can do it....

maybe, sometimes kita akan terjatuh sekejap,
rasa haus sekejap,
rasa nak pengsan sekejap,
and maybe rasa malas je nak teruskan...
of course all that things can happen masa korang semua berlari kan?
(sape2 yang tak pernah berlari tu tak sure lah pulak) (-_-)"

sama la macam life...
sometime kita akan rasa down sekejap,
malas je rasa....
(lagi2 kalau takde mood nak study)

but, always believe that, 
if there is still time for you to do it,
just do it...
teruskan je...

maybe we can slow down the speed...
but, don't stop at the middle...
do it slowly and maintain it..
(tetibe rasa macam tengah ajar cara berlari jarak jauh pulak) =.=

life is like that...
don't stop doing what you are doing...
(kalau benda tak baik tu stop la)
move on and believe that you can do it....

kesabaran tu penting...
dan sentiasa percaya Allah sentiasa bersama orang2 yang sabar...




Wednesday, October 27, 2010

missing in action


something is missing...
yes,i'm sure of that...
(bukan pensil tekan,bukan lecture notes,dan bukan juga homework aku)
or is it someone is missing?

i can't sort what is it...
but it makes my heart in pain when i'm thinking of it..
can this thing let me go?
it makes me in burden..

Allah,
if this is one of your test for me,
help me to be strong..
help me to successfully handle this..
i'm not strong..
i admit that...

please,help me to forget this..


i don't want to get down easily with only this thing..
i have other responsibility to myself and my family...
hope this kind of feeling can just passing by in my mind..
and come again to visit me next time..
when i'm ready enough to face it..


p/s :i need a strong spirit right now..
(it's not ghost spirit that what i mean okay ) (-_-")



got ample of notes to read,and it's really 'great'.. =.=

Sunday, October 24, 2010

rindu :)

yes,rindu...
nak dengar balik lagu nasyid raihan and hijjaz..
tu je...
tajuk post nak sentimental pulak kan.. =.=




p/s : tolonglah sape2 nak tolong aku siapkan homework PBL(problem based learning) ni x??
problem2...
mana semangat aku menghilang ni? gi jalan2 shopping mall jap kot....jap lagi datang lah....
okay,da start mengarut malam2 nih....baik aku pegi siapkan homework tuh.......

Thursday, October 21, 2010

tagged : "25 things about yuzuki "

salam..
today,i've been tagged by mika..

okay,stop tengok lecture notes yang da tengok aku balik nih..
buat lah tagged nih jap..

antara syaratnya:

  • cipta title sendiri (so,title nyer is '25 things about Yuzuki ')=.=
  • 25 perkara orang lain tak tau tapi kena tau (tau tau je sendiri..hehe :P)
  • tag 25 yang lain (sape2 yang lucky..hohoho..)

25 things about Yuzuki 

okay,let's begin~
1)the name yuzuki came from yamaha + suzuki = yuzuki   (logik ke? eh,ape ape je lah ea...)
2)japanesse meaning of yuzuki's name is "tender moon" 


3)reason mula2 buat this blog is....er,da lupa da..nanti jap ingat balik..

4)i'm expression less person...and someone who really can't express her feeling really well..   (the best expression i can have is when i woke up in the morning and bila dapat makanan yang sedap) =.=


5)i like simple things macam.......er,macam apa2 barang korang yang korang rasa simple...ha,,macam tu lah...

6)i do look like a quiet person only if people don't talk to me...

7)i'm a student with a complex mind and have my own views in different perspective....(ehem,puji diri sendiri sikit )

8)sometime i can immerse in my own world when i just look at the beautiful sky,the tree,the sunshine,the leaves..(kesimpulannya,i really do like nature)

9)dulu time sekolah,ada kawan cakap saya macam cartoon.....(hurm,sekarang dah tak kot.....sebab saya da matured) =.=

10)me in the past is quite different with me right now (sekarang lebih banyak cakap and can talk in front of people...dulu segan2 je...)actually sekarang pun segan lagi,cuma kurang sikit....

11)people do always thinking me as a serious person until they do really know me when i start a joke...

12)sometime i appreciate time when i'm alone.....rasa sangat dekat dengan Nya....

13)i'm definitely sure i'm not the type of romantic girl.........hurm,genetic abnormalities ke ni?okay,ape2 je lah..hehe... =.=

14)selalunya yuzuki akan post entry kat blog nih seminggu dua kali.....(mungkin akan dikurangkan sikit blogging sebab sekarang dah start busy with study)sorry...

15)i kinda like japanesse drama and movie......(nih pun kena kurangkan jugak...huhu....)


16)i'm not a person that people can gossip me with someone as i will become like naruto bila dia mengamuk......

17)right now,i should complete my homework which need to be discuss tomorrow....haissh... (T_T)

18)actually nama blog nak buat tajuk "aozora no namida" which means "the tears of the blue sky"  (tapi tak jadik lah letak nama tuh...nanti semua yang masuk blog nih,nak nangis je... :P)

19)i do learn japanesse language by myself....tapi da lama tak teruskan...cuma paham2 sikit je lah bila dengar lagu and tengok movie jepun.......hehe...

20)i do like anime......tapi saya bukan otaku...... best kot baca komik.....(naruto,eye shield 21,fullmetal alchemist,yakitate japan.............)

21)actually i kinda an art person....(betul ke??) tapi tetibe je masuk bidang sains....okay je...hehe....

22)prinsip yuzuki is : not to get down when you faces on hard things...get up back and show your courage  to faces that thing.....jangan cepat putus asa....fighting!!

23)buat masa sekarang,i just wanna do the best for myself and to make my parents and my family happy and proud of myself...(okay,pergi study sekarang yuzuki........) =.=

24)maybe i'll face the reality of this life in my next year of study...

25)tak tau tulis ape lagi........anything yang korang nak tau lagi,try tanya lecturer then dipersilakan keluar daripada dewan kuliah...hehe...gurau je...


tahniah,sebab berjaya baca entry yang panjang nih sampai habis (yang mungkin bored nih...) =.=
clap clap...
so,i tag another 5 lah...(yang lain sape2 nak buat,buatlah ye..)  (>_<)


that's all for today....kesian sekian,terima kasih..


Saturday, October 16, 2010

yes,i do miss them a lot..

do you still remember when we run happily together, friends?

missing you,all those that i known as friends..

actually tadi tetibe schoolmate post those pictures in our old school days..
it just makes me miss all of them,
memories with them,
and all sort of things that we had done in our 'crazy' time as a school kids..
(though we actually should not be considered as a kid in high school right?)

those memories..
some good..
and some just make me laughing back when it cross my mind..

lagi2 for those yang stay in hostel may have an experienced with 
ponteng prep malam and pergi lah menyorok kat mana2(almari,bawah katil,toilet) =.=

berlumba-lumba pergi dewan makan sebelum dihabiskan oleh mereka yang tak pernah kenal erti lapar(selalunya boys selalu habiskan makanan kat dewan makan..) =.=

bawak walkman waktu prep malam yang sepatutnya tak boleh bawak..
(then,kantoi ngan kawan2 sebab diorang panggil and i buat don't know sebab volume walkman yang kuat)hehe..

budak kelas yang selalu fight with boys
(bila fikir balik aku pun tak paham why nak fight..tengok tengok after school baik pulak..hehe..lawak je zaman sekolah ni) :D

and yes,ada istilah senior and junior yang memang tradisi kot..

pergi riadah petang yang selalunya ended with pergi koperasi ramai-ramai beli aiskrim sambil gossip..
(riadah sepatutnya menguruskan badan,terbalik pulak apa yang kitorang buat dulu..) =.=

pergi bilik study then after bukak buku terus tidur kat situ..
(bila pagi terpinga-pinga, why am i here in this study room?) =.=

tengok bola ramai-ramai time world cup..
(hehe..tak boleh blah betul..siap mintak izin pengetua "kitorang nak tengok world cup jugak..kenape boys boleh tengok kitorang tak boleh pulak"ask one of my friend yang agak otai...nasib baik pengetua aku sporting) :D

i do missing each one of them a lot.
and everything is just a memorable time..
sometime we never knew that what's going on at that time can makes us laughing when we thinking back of it later..

maybe some of us have not a good experience in high school time..
but for me,
it do change me and makes me appreciate more on what i having right now..


eventhough we are not together right now..
and get separated by our own path to reach our own dream..
but those time that we had been go through in the past..
makes me a person right now..
and i'm not regretted meeting all of you guys..

thanks for everything..
i just hope that we all can get success in our life 
and when we will meet again later,we all had grown up as a wonderful person..
InsyaAllah..







Sunday, October 10, 2010

everyday is a learning process

we go through different experiences everyday..

we learn everyday..
and learning does'nt matter your ages,your status,and gender..
everyone is actually always in a learning process..

we learn from our parents when we small,
we learn from teachers when we start our days in school,
we learn from others experience,
we learn from ourselves on what we have go through,
we learn from the natures..

everything can be learned in everywhere we are,
sometime we don't even know that we are actually learning..
and the target of learning is actually for us to get better in ourselves..
it does't matter if you got a really high educational level with a very high certificate,
if your behaviour is so low..

but people always do a mistake in a process of learning..
its okay as long as we recognise our fault..
and try to do a better one..
(hey,nobody perfect :) )

some people may experiences a happy memory,
while some other people may endure a pain experiences,
its all the same actually,
as this world is round and what comes around goes around..

but as long as we can handle and faces the pain experience,
we actually have pass through a step in our life cycle..
and if your experience is really a different one from others,
doesn't it makes you more expert if you faces that kind of problems next time..
may be you can handle it better next time than in previous time..

so,don't let your spirit down when there is something upsetting you..
its okay to crying if the pain is too much,
but don't let it control yourselves,
get up back and face it with your courage,
always know there is Allah with us..

hurmm..
actually i'm not sure why am i suddenly in this kind of mood to talk about this thing..
it just pop out from my mind..hehe..
so,no offence okay..
lets try to achieve a better stage in our life..
and the main target of our life sholud be to Allah..
hanya kepadaNya lah kita kembali..








Sunday, September 26, 2010

hanabi lyric by mr children

Hanabi - Mr. Children (Code Blue Dorama Ending with Translation)

What value left is there
in this world I live in?
I start thinking its all meaningless
or maybe I’m just tired?

In exchange for something I got
I gave up a number of precious things
but it’s not such a peaceful world
that I can lament each and every one.

What kind of dreams should I envision?
What kind of hopes should I take with me as I go forward?
These seemingly impossible to answer questions
Get buried in my day to day life.

If you were here I wonder what you would say?
you’d probably say I was being “gloomy” and have a laugh.
I just wish i could see your gentle smile to blow away my melancholy.

even if it’s a light like fireworks
that can never be caught
one more time, one more time, one more time, one more time
I want to reach out for it.

We all carry sadness with us
but we hope for a better tomorrow
I wonder to what extent we can love a world
gripped by fear, thrown into unrest?

I get choked up on the words ’cause I think too much
I hate how clumsy I am
Yet oddly enough, I hate more how skillfully I can pretend.

Whether we spend the years laughing or crying
time passes the same for all
the future is calling to us
are you, now, hearing it too?

Even though we knew from the start
that we’d eventually have to say goodbye
one more time, one more time, one more time, one more time
and as many times as I can I hope to see you again.

I never imagined that simply meeting you
could make the world seem so beautiful
would you laugh at me for being simple minded?
I want to say “thank you” to you from my heart.

I wish my heart flowed fast and smooth like water
so that it would not settle in one place.

For all those times when I need to see you
for those times when I’ll miss you so
one more time, one more time, one more time, one more time
I want to burn your memory deep in me.

We all have our problems
but we hope for a better tomorrow
I wonder to what extent we can love a world
gripped by fear, thrown into unrest?

one more time, one more time,
one more time, one more time…

p/s : love this song..
lebih2 lagi yg ade maksud :

Whether we spend the years laughing or crying
time passes the same for all
the future is calling to us
are you, now, hearing it too?

it just have some meaning in it for me :)

Monday, September 20, 2010

things that i need to get serious back..

need to be serious back like this face..


sometime i do realise things are not going to stay the same forever..
every year,the number in my age do increase,
the responsibilities i get also increases,
the hearts i need to care of does increase,
the road i chose and the surrounding does changes,
same goes to my view on this world.. 

but the point is,
I'm not sure does myself got also changes along these things?

it maybe good if what changes inside me into a positive one..
and of course it will be harm for me if the changes is into a negative point..
hurm,but i think I'm natural as I've got both positive and negative point..(positive + negative = natural)
hehe..of course,nobody perfect right?

but what I'm quite sure myself is i do changes in my way to keep on focusing and serious in my study..
it's kinda to negative one...
yeah,my bad.. =.="

WHY??
okay,I'm not sure the answer..but maybe because too much play-play..
too much Japanese drama to watch (this is true)
too much time to sleep (this is not true..hehe..)
my focus has change on other thing (like super junior,and other korean entertainment)=.="

but,
i need to find a solution right now..

yes,a solution..
a solution which can fire up back my spirit to be more serious in study..
which can waking up back something inside me untuk kembali mengganas time study...ROAAR!! (da macam naruto pulak aku rasa)=.="
the spirit that i do felt in my high school year..
i want it back..

so,maybe some changes will be done to get back this spirit..
yes,it need to be as i don't want to stay on weak in this course..
wish me to get success..
and i also hope all of u also can find back the spirit that may had lost (erk,bukan spirit yang roh tu tau..)

all the best :)
InsyaAllah..




Monday, September 13, 2010

Bloody Monday 2


the hacker in bloody monday 2..

okay,before i get start writing on this japanesse drama,let's get start with other thing first..


home alone..
maybe u can say that to a kid that get left out from his family vacation without anyone conscious
that the kid was left at home..

no,it wasn't me..
of course it's not...
as i'm no longer a kid =.="

okay,
but maybe i'm the one the girl that get left out at home for a while because she want to escape from some of question that most of her makcik had been ask..

for example,
"do you already have a special one?"ask Mak cik 1,Mak cik 2 and Mak cik 3..
and she was told to find it right now...what??

the one that i can only do is just smile..

no,it's not that i don't want it..
but it just..
all-this-things-about-heart is quite hard for me..

okay stop that topic..

and here it goes...
now i am watching Bloody Monday 2...
it is a japanesse drama..
and before it get the title Bloody Monday 2,of course it already had its Bloody Monday 1..
this story is about a hacker and how he get involve in fighting the terrorist to save his friends and family...

when i'm watching this,it really can give me some cardiac arrhythmia (abnormal heart palpitation)
as it do have some spontaneous action...
and my brain always thinking who's the one behind all this thing(nak try investigate macam detective lah kononnya..)

overall,
my rate to this drama is A+(kalau aku nyer markah test pun camni kan best)
=.="

that's all...
saje nak promote drama ni..hehe...

p/s :
to all my follower and all the visitor(you-know-who-you-are) :)
saya nak wish..
selamat hari raya!!
maaf zahir batin...

hope that we always get the bless from Allah..

sori lambat wish..
da nak masuk raya ke-5 da kot... =.="

Monday, September 6, 2010

the past..


sometime we need to look back on the past to face the future..
i had learnt something tonight..
things on the past sometime can really give a big impact to someone..
what type of person can someone be into the future,
sometime it depends on how the person face the problem in their past..

is it on a positive way,
or into a negative one..
or just ignoring that problem until it became what it shouldn't..(sometime this is me..heh..)

but,hey..
i think we shouldn't make this life more complex than how it was..
hurm,maybe some of u can try to have my face-without-feeling..(is this the thing that i should get pride on??no,i'm confused..hehe..)

so that,even when u are really get hurt,people won't knew it...
then,at least we won't hurt others feeling..
okay,i think this hand just move on typing without the command from my brain.. (-__-)"
and i think it's better for me to stop it here before this hand get some rigidity which may consider a seizure..
(now i've start writing nonsense)

p/s :
actually tomorrow i really should prepare my head properly before i get blown up by a 6 straight on lecture..
yes..i know it's "great"...
with the fact that everyone is in their hometown right now...
and why are we still here??
sabar2..
mak,nak balik kampung!!
huhu...

Friday, September 3, 2010

hati yang mati..


hati yang sakit dan mati haruslah dirawat..
ketandusan hati,
hati yang mati,
hati yang gelisah,
hati yang sakit,
hati yang kosong..
hati yang bahagia..

bagaimanakah ia??

kebahagiaan hakiki bukanlah terletak pada kemewahan harta benda,namun pada hati yang tenang...

"sesungguhnya dalam diri manusia iu ada seketul daging.apabila daging itu baik,maka baiklah seluruh anggota.dan apabila daging itu rosak,maka rosaklah seluruh anggota.ketahuilah,itulah hati."
(hadis Bukhari dan Muslim)

bila ditunjuk kebenaran,berpaling darinya..
bila disebut neraka,tiada gentar hatinya..
bila disebut dosa,rasa hebat dirinya..
bila dalam sendirian,tidak kembali mengingati pada Allah..

itulah tanda-tanda hati yang buta dan mati..

kenalilah hati kita sendiri...
bagaimanakah ia??

larikah kita pada kebenaran??
tepuk dada tanya iman..

membaca al-Quran adalah salah satu cara merawat hati yang mati dan sakit...
oleh itu,sama-sama lah kita merawat kembali hati kita yang mungkin sudah mati dan sakit..

hati yang mati lebih menakutkan daripada jasad yang mati..
semoga kita dijauhkan dari hati yang mati...
hanya pada Allah kita kembali..


p/s :
badan yang sakit,bolehlah kita bawa jumpa doktor..
hati yang mati dan sakit juga haruslah kita rawat dengan cara yang betul :)

Friday, August 27, 2010

a good day it was...


hope everyday is going on smooth and calm like today...
assalamualikum wbt....
hopefully all of u people always stay in healthy,calm and happiness always at ur side...

today is such a great day i think...
sebab hari ni hari nuzul al Quran...
iaitu hari di mana al Quran diturunkan pada 17 ramadhan..

plus,
hari ni hari jumaat yang ke-3 untuk bulan ramadhan...
and it just rain just now..
di mana waktu hujan adalah antara waktu doa yg dimakbulkan Allah...

Alhamdulillah everything going on smooth and calm today...
dunia adalah perhentian sementara bagi manusia...
di mana ia mungkin menjadi tempat bersuka-ria bagi sesetengah manusia,

manakala bagi segolongan yg lain pula,
ianya menjadi tempat beribadah,
tempat di mana sentiasa mengingati Allah,
tempat untuk mengumpul kebaikan sebagai bekalan untuk hari perhitungan,
dan tidak terpengaruh akan kegembiraan dunia yg sementara ini..

semoga kita semua diampunkan kesalahan dan dosa sebelum ini...
hanya kepadaNya lah kita kembali...

p/s :
yesterday i've got food poisoning...
which is 'great' i guess....
thanx to da clinic,i've got MC and not attend the lab anatomy on that evening,
which i'm supposed to read the lecture notes before enter the class... heh..
da la ramai2 yg kene...
erk,aku agak ramai gak dak yg x datang lab semalam....
sorry Dr...
it's not our fault..
it's that microbes and bacteria in our food fault..
hehe...

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

this ramadhan is a month with full of barakah..


salam ramadhan..

hari ni terasa kelainan daripada hari2 yg sebelumnya...

Alhamdulillah,diri ini masih dapat lagi menjalani ibadah dalam bulan yg penuh barakah..

carilah barakah yg tersembunyi dalam bulan ini...
semoga kita semua lebih dekat denganNya..

betulkan hati dan niat..
kuatkan iman dan taqwa..
kalahkan nafsu dan keinginan sendiri..

menjaga mata dan pandangan..
menjaga hubungan dengan Allah..
menjaga hubungan dengan kawan..

dorongkan diri ke arah kebaikan..

jauhkan diri daripada laranganNya..
persiapkan diri ke jalan yg lurus dan tempat yg kekal abadi..
iaitu di Akhirat sana...
dunia hanya sementara...

we dont know..
if this ramadhan is the last one...

hope that we can collect as much as possible all the barakah in this ramadhan..

sesungguhnya Allah masih lagi sayang pada diri ini..
dengan memberi lagi hidup dalam diri ini..

InsyaAllah kita menjadi hamba yg berjaya dunia akhirat..

Friday, August 6, 2010

invisible me??hope it was..

sometime i just hope to be like them...
wanna be ninja??
WHY??
so that i can learn how to be invisible...
ilmu ninja penyamaran..
less people to face,less problem to face..
btol ke??
okay,at least not to face the probs for a while..
sometime we need time before we can face on something BIG..
(bukan dinosour mahupun elephant)
maybe ley gak tido sepanjang mase kuliah if jadi invisible nih..
(kantoi..)
why wanna be invisible?
less people to face,
less thing to get heated,
less problem get make,
less person to get hurt,
less gossip people have,
less hurt i get,
less burden it is..
okay cukup..x perlu kot aku bersajak panjang2..
entry ni bukan bertajuk less...
it juz things get messed..
n i just wanna shout it here before things get burst..
no worries..
hey,u noe that my face really can hide all this probs..
as it naturally have a-face-without-feeling-and-all-this-thing..
hehe...
it do have advantage actually..
yeah..smile always \(>_<)/
tomorrow is still there..

Friday, July 23, 2010

is it a trend right now??

salam...
semoga kita sentiasa dilimpahi rahmatNya...

 i've been thinking back in these day...
 n i've found something interesting to share...
which mostly we have forgot the meaning of it...

based on perbualan my friend and me petang tadi...
i've a conclusion dat most of my friend and maybe people around us are having a special relationship between boys and girls which mostly people called it COUPLE..

yes,it already become a trend between our friends and maybe ourselves...
n it's kinda make me sad...
as mostly girls don't understand the meaning of it...

when i talk to my friends,mostly said kita tak boleh tunggu guys approach kita,kita pun mestilah ade usaha juga...

kawan2...
apakah maksud USAHA yang anda semua perkatakan?

adakah ianya bermaksud : whenever a guy approach,we just gladly accept because we know at least we having someone dat like us?
or we need to approach the one dat we like before others snatch him from us?
or berusaha untuk dapatkan couple so that ade back up untuk mase depan...

i don't know if all of this ade kena mengena dengan maksud USAHA tersebut..

doesn't the USAHA means that kita berusaha untuk improve diri, hati, amalan dan kebajikan kita agar kita dapat menjadi seorang isteri dan ibu yang terbaik pada masa hadapan?

doesn't that mean, we as a girl kena berusaha protect diri kita sendiri daripada gangguan2 para lelaki?
that's why ISLAM wajibkan wanita menutup aurat..
kerana itulah yang terbaik sekali as a protection for a women...

mungkin kerana surrounding kawan2,ramai yang terikut-ikut untuk mendapatkan couple or partner...
or mungkin kerana tak nak dipanggil noob,nerdy and tak hot....
kita berusaha untuk dapatkan couple...
mungkin dengan bermacam cara lagi...

saya rasa sedih bila difikir semula...
i know that ramai yang tak bersetuju with my opinion...

but majoriti tak semestinya betul...
x semestinya kita harus ikut majoriti,perubahan zaman and trendy...
eventhough we know that majority is wrong,do we still need to follow it?

yeah,it may be a bit hard for a minority to move on..
but we still can move on actually..
dengan ade kekuatan hati dan prinsip hidup yang betul..

we don't need just to follow everyone...
some of us maybe want to couple because we are afraid that if kita x terima guy yang approach kita,rase menyesal..

of course, we as a teenager mesti ade perasaan ingin saling menyayangi..
it is basic thing as a human...

i also have someone that i admire...
but we need to fight that nafsu and godaan syaitan which later become a bad thing us...
don't just follow keinginan and nafsu manusia...

i believe that...
if it is true that he the one i like is the jodoh that Allah give to me, Alhamdulillah...
if not then its okay...maybe i'll get a better one for me...

just move on ourselves to become a better person, then InsyaAllah we also get a better person..
let he goes his way and we goes our way...

kalau Allah nak pertemukan kita dengan orang tersebut itu sememangnya di bawah kuasaNya...
so what else do we need??

perlukah kita berusaha approach diri kita to a guy just because we need to have someone or like them?
this is just my opinion which maybe some of us have forget what is the meaning of USAHA to get a good partner...

to become a better person or not..
it is all in ur hands...

mungkin ini juga adalah ujian yang datang untuk melihat sejauh mana kekuatan kita untuk menepis gangguan nafsu dan syaitan...

so,girls...
berhati-hatilah...
and kuatkan hati dan prinsip anda..

and for boys,
please understand the difficulty for a girl to become a good one..
because nowadays sudah terlalu banyak dosa yang melibatkan perempuan...

jika anda inginkan yang terbaik untuk bakal isteri dan suami anda,
kenapa tidak kita pun berusaha juga buat yang terbaik?

InsyaAllah jika kita berniat baik dan mengikuti jalanNya,Allah juga akan menolong kita.. :)

Thursday, June 24, 2010

bulan kelahiran islam...

picture yg di google..
assalamualaikum
 entry kali ni ialah bulan kelahiran islam...
 link nih : islamic calendar


so,setelah di click pada tarikh kelahiran kita dalam gregorian(birth date yang kita semua guna skang) and ditukar pada tarikh hijri(hijrah),barulah tau kita nih dilahirkan dalam bulan ape...
 and result nye mine in  bulan syawal.

melahirkan,membesarkan, mendidik dan mengasuh anak..
tak semua orang boleh melakukannya..
so,always appreciate what we have right now..
always remember our mom and dad where ever we are..
doakan mereka :)

Saturday, June 19, 2010

i don't noe..

salam... hmm,how should i handle this? okay,do like normal yuzuki... don't put too high hopes, juz do normally what u should do.. sigh, things not always going on smoothly... i've learn dat.. hope tomorrow going on even better.. insyaAllah.. p/s :this is the shortest post since the first entry i post.. cause things i wanna write juz can't come out as what i thought.. just smile although it tough :)

Friday, June 18, 2010

kanashimi

salam.. today entry is, kanashimi = sadness why?because.. i'm tired already.. some of the spirit has already left me... hopefully the one left right now is able to make me stronger... sometime in a time like this,this song will be good for me to hear.. 'chiisana koi no uta' by mongol 800.. somehow it is a japanesse rock song.. which i think it can make my heart shout again... though the song is actually 'bout love, but it is good to hear.. at a time like when i wanna shout,but it just can't... be strong yuzuki.. tomorrow is still there for you.. huh... p/s : i notice that day by day,it is more hard for me to smile... there's a deep hole in my heart right now.. n i don't wanna make the hole deeper..

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

is it alright?

salam.. hopefully sume dlm keadaan sihat walafiat.. tajuk entry hari ni "is it alright?"ape maksudnye agak2? actually aku x yakin nak teruskan berblogging nih ke x.. nape ye tetibe je aku berperasaan camni? maybe sebab aku x yakin..sebab kat sinilah aku nak tulis perkara yg tersirat dlm hati aku nih.. tp bila da cerita kat org laen,cam da x privacy je... maybe sbb aku masih baru lg kat dunia blogging nih,so aku x yakin sgt kot... but kalau boleh aku xnak org laen kenal sape penulis nih...sbb kalu boleh aku harap aku dapat ceritakan personal things kat sini... so,better kalau org x kenal kot... hmm,aku pun x sure ape sbb aku start wat blog nih.. nak diikutkan leh je aku tulis kat diary...tp kekadang kantoi gak ngan other sibling yg terbaca diary tuh.. so,nak selamat malaslah aku nak tulis kat diary,nnt kantoi wat malu je...haha.. tp kalau banyak sgt benda yg aku asyik pendam je,tunggulah x lama lg meletus gunung berapi... ade certain things yg kite leh share ngan member kite,ade yg better x payah... tp sometime penat gak simpan je....seriously kadang2 aku cam berkira-kira(tanpa gune calculator) perlu x aku cerita kan benda yg aku asyik fikir nih kat member,,, huh... tp akhirnya dengan membuat pengiraan yg bijak(tanpa guna calculator lg) aku x cerita pun kat member... salah satu masalah aku ialah it's hard to believe people...tp aku bukan maen suka-suki je x nak percayakan org...but it takes time to build a trust. lebih2 lg kalau kita nak ceritakan perkara yg da jadi sebahagian dalam hidup kita yg kita rase personal... tp aku jenis orang yg kalau perkara tuh aku rase aku leh uruskan,aku harap aku x susahkan org laen ngan membebankan ngan masalah2 aku... tp kat mane lg aku boleh ceritakan?? yup..yg pertama memang Allah lah tempat kita rujuk semula semua perkara... hanya denganNya hati kita akan tenang.... so,mgkin tindakan aku menulis di blog nih adalah supaya dpt share pd orang lain something yg aku mungkin differ from other people... i'm sure everyone that enter this blogging world have their own reason why they start on blogging... but for me,cukuplah kalau aku katakan di sini i'm try to express my own little thing here...the one that i can't express it loudly outside...maybe here is the place where i can shout... SHOUT!! jerit lg...haha...dah...dah... da malm ,kang x pasal2 je dengar orang jerit betul2...wat seram je... akhir kata, maybe hati aku akan masih berkira-kira lg (kali ni pun x gne calculator,gne buku sifir je..haha..) ,is it alright for me to say things here?? tp aku harap ni adalah tindakan yg betul dan bile aku share kat sini mungkin ley kurangkan workload dalam jantung nih (sbb ble da share,kurang la rase risau dan susah hati...kan?kan?) InsyaAllah kalau kita berniat buat something yg betul di jalan Nya,Allah akan memudahkan sesuatu urusan... so yakinlah dengan Nya.. senyum :)