the ending and the beginning

yoshi!!

tamatlah sudah saya study

untuk sem ni je tapi...

belum exam lagi...


macam pantun pulak...
okay,cut it out...

the main point is....
1. this blog dah bertukar kulit/skin/layout/what-so-ever-people-call-it

2.this sem sudah pun melabuhkan tirainya....
rasa sekejap sangat....and at the same time banyak unexpected things happen....
things dah study banyak..tapi information yang betul betul glued on my brain ni macam sikit je...(adoyai)

3.this december pun dah nak berakhir...semakin tua lah saya....
walaupun nak diikutkan muda lagi...ecece.....

4.exam will be start in another 2 weeks...
rasa macam tak cukup je nak revise semua...tapi still lagi leisure golek golek atas katil,haissh...problemo betul..


rasa betul betul kena berubah ke arah lebih baik...
change for good,
it worth,right..

and yes,
for that thing to accomplish,
it really need quite a good effort,sweat,sweet, and spirit..


p/s:
i do also hopes that i can totally switch off the dark and turn on th light...
em,macam pelik je ayat ni...
okay abaikan...








exam's study week mode:
turn it ON.....

                                             maybe i'll really change like this in this study week's mode
                                                                           (wish me not)

off

it come
on and off
if i can chose to switch it
i chose to
switch it off
from the start
i knew you

so,no more rewind
on the past..

if i knew forgetting is harder

you right there
there which was so far away from here

i'm gonna make it

i'm gonna make it
i'm gonna be strong
to reach it
the aim that is waiting for me to give it a strike...

no turning back
to the past
that already left
though it is pain..

it will all be worth
with what had happen

if i can make it
right now
which will lead me
on the future..

as long as tomorrow is still there
for me
to still have the hope

i'm gonna make it
to be more stonger than before

i wanna keep the tears
not to flow right now
but until the goal is reach
then i will allow it

to keep the pace constantly
till the end of the race

i'm gonna fight
in this battle

not just waiting for the goal to come
but to run to it

i'm gonna make it
InsyaAllah...

a reflection...

saya memang bukan seorang yang kuat...
saya akui saya lemah...
selau terjatuh.....
selalu cuai....

saya akui saya bukan bijak....
memang sejak kecil lagi saya selalu blur...
selalu tak paham....
selalu malas nak pahamkan....

tapi saya ada suatu kekuatan....
yang saya baru sedar sekarang....
which is.....
saya tak kan cepat mengalah...

saya tau setiap usaha akan ada hasilnya...
walaupun lambat sedikit untuk dapat hasilnya...
saya akan cuba sesuaikan diri dengan surrounding
walaupun susah....
tapi saya tak kan give up.....

saya sedar semua ini Allah beri pada saya....
daripada seorang yang tiada ilmu,Allah beri saya ilmu...
daripada seorang yang tiada arah tuju,Allah beri saya tujuan hidup ini....
hanya untuk mendapat keredaanNya...
saya memang tidak mempunyai apa apa tanpa pertolongan Allah....
tiada apa apa...

daripada seorang yang lemah,Allah beri saya kekuatan...
dengan ujianNya...
walaupun lambat untuk saya faham Hikmah di sebalik ujian tersebut....
ada kekuatan yang saya dapat dengan ujianNya...
dan saya rasa beruntung kerana bukan semua orang dipilh untuk menerima ujianNya...


"Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan dengan kesanggupannya"

InsyaAllah,
saya cuba buat yang terbaik dalam hidup ini dengan apa yang saya ada sekarang..

shock (with a very long explaination) =.="

"a picture can describe thousand of words"

some thing can happen unexpectedly...
and when that time occur,
normally our brain can't form a response to that stimulus at that time (unless you have a very good connection between the neuron and can speed up the response with the stimulus simultaneously)
but a reflex may be occur.....
a situation like the above picture....

or in a simplest word from a very long explaination...
it is a SHOCK...

actually what i wanna say today is some thing that happen to me unexpectedly just now....
and I'm consider myself still in a shock situation.... =.="

oh,no worry....
this shock is just a simple shock....
and I think it may be resolve after I take a nap and eat a bunch of food....
and after saya pengsan dengan sengaja.....

apa berlaku ada HikmahNya....


p/s:
this shock is different from
haemorrhagic shock,
hypovolaemic shock,
anaphylactic shock,
and toxic shock..
(which all of them is a medical jargon for shock)





okay nak sambung pengsan balik....

hidden inside

"We all carry sadness with us
but we hope for a better tomorrow
I wonder to what extent we can love a world
gripped by fear, thrown into unrest? "

-Hanabi lyrics by Mr.Children-






everyone have something hidden inside...
that not all people can see it..
even with a closed one..


fear to get hurt again, 
we tend to close our heart, and start to build a concrete wall to protect it..


yet,trying to smile and improve ourself to a better one...


but
the past is already left,
and what left in front of us is a future...
a future that need to get care of,
so that it will be something that valuable...
rather than nothing...


and YES,
kita memang selalu diuji dengan pelbagai dugaan....
untuk menguji kesabaran dan keimanan....


apa yang berlaku pasti ada Hikmah-Nya...




p/s:
test petang tadi macam tak buat dengan baik...
kena improve lagi....
and kena usaha lagi rasanya....
adoi....
tidur banyak lagi...padan muka saya.....