the ending and the beginning

yoshi!!

tamatlah sudah saya study

untuk sem ni je tapi...

belum exam lagi...


macam pantun pulak...
okay,cut it out...

the main point is....
1. this blog dah bertukar kulit/skin/layout/what-so-ever-people-call-it

2.this sem sudah pun melabuhkan tirainya....
rasa sekejap sangat....and at the same time banyak unexpected things happen....
things dah study banyak..tapi information yang betul betul glued on my brain ni macam sikit je...(adoyai)

3.this december pun dah nak berakhir...semakin tua lah saya....
walaupun nak diikutkan muda lagi...ecece.....

4.exam will be start in another 2 weeks...
rasa macam tak cukup je nak revise semua...tapi still lagi leisure golek golek atas katil,haissh...problemo betul..


rasa betul betul kena berubah ke arah lebih baik...
change for good,
it worth,right..

and yes,
for that thing to accomplish,
it really need quite a good effort,sweat,sweet, and spirit..


p/s:
i do also hopes that i can totally switch off the dark and turn on th light...
em,macam pelik je ayat ni...
okay abaikan...








exam's study week mode:
turn it ON.....

                                             maybe i'll really change like this in this study week's mode
                                                                           (wish me not)

off

it come
on and off
if i can chose to switch it
i chose to
switch it off
from the start
i knew you

so,no more rewind
on the past..

if i knew forgetting is harder

you right there
there which was so far away from here

i'm gonna make it

i'm gonna make it
i'm gonna be strong
to reach it
the aim that is waiting for me to give it a strike...

no turning back
to the past
that already left
though it is pain..

it will all be worth
with what had happen

if i can make it
right now
which will lead me
on the future..

as long as tomorrow is still there
for me
to still have the hope

i'm gonna make it
to be more stonger than before

i wanna keep the tears
not to flow right now
but until the goal is reach
then i will allow it

to keep the pace constantly
till the end of the race

i'm gonna fight
in this battle

not just waiting for the goal to come
but to run to it

i'm gonna make it
InsyaAllah...

a reflection...

saya memang bukan seorang yang kuat...
saya akui saya lemah...
selau terjatuh.....
selalu cuai....

saya akui saya bukan bijak....
memang sejak kecil lagi saya selalu blur...
selalu tak paham....
selalu malas nak pahamkan....

tapi saya ada suatu kekuatan....
yang saya baru sedar sekarang....
which is.....
saya tak kan cepat mengalah...

saya tau setiap usaha akan ada hasilnya...
walaupun lambat sedikit untuk dapat hasilnya...
saya akan cuba sesuaikan diri dengan surrounding
walaupun susah....
tapi saya tak kan give up.....

saya sedar semua ini Allah beri pada saya....
daripada seorang yang tiada ilmu,Allah beri saya ilmu...
daripada seorang yang tiada arah tuju,Allah beri saya tujuan hidup ini....
hanya untuk mendapat keredaanNya...
saya memang tidak mempunyai apa apa tanpa pertolongan Allah....
tiada apa apa...

daripada seorang yang lemah,Allah beri saya kekuatan...
dengan ujianNya...
walaupun lambat untuk saya faham Hikmah di sebalik ujian tersebut....
ada kekuatan yang saya dapat dengan ujianNya...
dan saya rasa beruntung kerana bukan semua orang dipilh untuk menerima ujianNya...


"Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan dengan kesanggupannya"

InsyaAllah,
saya cuba buat yang terbaik dalam hidup ini dengan apa yang saya ada sekarang..

shock (with a very long explaination) =.="

"a picture can describe thousand of words"

some thing can happen unexpectedly...
and when that time occur,
normally our brain can't form a response to that stimulus at that time (unless you have a very good connection between the neuron and can speed up the response with the stimulus simultaneously)
but a reflex may be occur.....
a situation like the above picture....

or in a simplest word from a very long explaination...
it is a SHOCK...

actually what i wanna say today is some thing that happen to me unexpectedly just now....
and I'm consider myself still in a shock situation.... =.="

oh,no worry....
this shock is just a simple shock....
and I think it may be resolve after I take a nap and eat a bunch of food....
and after saya pengsan dengan sengaja.....

apa berlaku ada HikmahNya....


p/s:
this shock is different from
haemorrhagic shock,
hypovolaemic shock,
anaphylactic shock,
and toxic shock..
(which all of them is a medical jargon for shock)





okay nak sambung pengsan balik....

hidden inside

"We all carry sadness with us
but we hope for a better tomorrow
I wonder to what extent we can love a world
gripped by fear, thrown into unrest? "

-Hanabi lyrics by Mr.Children-






everyone have something hidden inside...
that not all people can see it..
even with a closed one..


fear to get hurt again, 
we tend to close our heart, and start to build a concrete wall to protect it..


yet,trying to smile and improve ourself to a better one...


but
the past is already left,
and what left in front of us is a future...
a future that need to get care of,
so that it will be something that valuable...
rather than nothing...


and YES,
kita memang selalu diuji dengan pelbagai dugaan....
untuk menguji kesabaran dan keimanan....


apa yang berlaku pasti ada Hikmah-Nya...




p/s:
test petang tadi macam tak buat dengan baik...
kena improve lagi....
and kena usaha lagi rasanya....
adoi....
tidur banyak lagi...padan muka saya.....

Parents -they only One for each of us-

Alhamdulillah,
laptop dah dapat treatment and hope after this dia x meragam lagi....

I learn again something tonight....
after a long long time x dengar tazkirah about parents...
rasa macam baru tersedar balik....

from the tazkirah,
I learn that our role with our parents had been change....
as they grow more older,we become more stronger,

if yesterday they are the one that be a doctor to us,
now if we just spent some of our time to talk and look on them, they already happy...

if when we're child, we felt like everything we're doing is the one they told us to do,
now sometime they can't even remember what they want to do as they became forgettable..

from the one that can carry us and hug us when we small,
now they are the one that need our help.....

though the situation and the role had been changed,
and as we become more independent,
always remember that they are only one parent for each of us...

the one that always loving us,
always wanna look us happy,
the one that try their best for their child,

and how bad they are,they only one of parents you'll have....

though they are angry on us,scold us...
it's all because they are loving us....
it's better to have someone that can scold you for your best than being ignored.....

sometime we just need to kill our ego,
and just say sorry to them,
on whatever mistake we're doing....

if they had done something bad,it's all between them and Allah...
we as a child just need to pray for them and take care of them as our role to be son and daughter....

maybe some will say,talking is easier than doing...
it's true....
but we better say sorry to them right now,
hug them now,
create the memory right now,
and do our role as a son and daughter right now....

before it's too late to say so....

p/s:
buat peringatan untuk diri yang sering terlupa...
no offence...
sentiasa doakan mereka walau di mane mereka berada....

emergency post

salam...

maybe around this week i can't keep blogging and blogwalking...
need to repair back my laptop...
something going wrong with him....
maybe he's got some infection of virus and bacteria...


thanx a lot for everyone of you that give support to me...
also thanx for the award by alexa yussida and feez-cucuatokaji
kalau ade kesempatan,i'll try my best to do the entry about it... \(>_<)/

and for the tagging by purplekyu, i'll also try to do it....

so,hope we'll meet again after my laptop got all the treatment and drug to kill all the virus that cause the inflammation and his infection...haha....

keep on healthy and keep on ur smile :)

precious moment

'There're times when strangers are like family,...........' by Hlovate,Rooftop Rant...


some quote that i think enough to figure out what i felt right now....
nothing much actually....

menghilang beberapa hari yag lalu untuk mendapat pengalaman baru...
masuk kampung and belajar cara hidup kat sana....
dapat mak ayah angkat untuk beberapa hari sepanjang menjalankan aktiviti khidmat masyarakat...
and they are really really good to us...

eventhough what we're doing there is just a medical check up,
but then,it's really a good experience and an exposure on how to deal with real patient.....

i'm responsible to take their blood glucose and blood type....
easy enough actually....student sekolah pun boleh buat sebenarnya.....
tapi tengoklah tangan menggeletar ke tak masa mula mula nak buat....
of course lah....tangan manusia tuh,bukan tangan mayat.....
hehe...
tapi masa mula mula je lah....
lama lama okay dah....

and what important i think is communication skills...
there,u will learn how to talk with a real patient.....
ingatkan senang,tapi susah jugak sebenarnya....
but then,that's how the process of learning works...

dah balik kolej, rindu pulak kat mak ayah angkat...
rindu kat masakan mak yang sangat sedap.....
memang makan bertambah :D
rindu kat ayah yang cool..hehe...

maybe this is one of my precious moment that i'll really appreciate.....

get up and start running back..

the road is still so far before it can reach the goal..

(picture from google)

salam...

Alhamdulillah,things are getting better...

sometime,when things are not going so good,

you just need some vacation to release it out...

(and for me,vacation tu balik kampung je...)

jumpa family jap...

then,you'll feel ease and calm....

and of course,what we should do is to refer back to Him...

hanya dengan kembali pada Allah,hati akan menjadi tenang...

for me,

sometime life ni macam berlari merentas desa..

(boleh ke example aku macam ni?) =.=

maksud aku...

memang perjalanan kita masih jauh untuk kita berlari ke penamat...

but then,

if you are doing it consistently,

and believe yourself that you actually can do it...

then you'll really can do it....

maybe, sometimes kita akan terjatuh sekejap,

rasa haus sekejap,

rasa nak pengsan sekejap,

and maybe rasa malas je nak teruskan...

of course all that things can happen masa korang semua berlari kan?

(sape2 yang tak pernah berlari tu tak sure lah pulak) (-_-)"

sama la macam life...

sometime kita akan rasa down sekejap,

malas je rasa....

(lagi2 kalau takde mood nak study)

but, always believe that, 

if there is still time for you to do it,

just do it...

teruskan je...

maybe we can slow down the speed...

but, don't stop at the middle...

do it slowly and maintain it..

(tetibe rasa macam tengah ajar cara berlari jarak jauh pulak) =.=

life is like that...

don't stop doing what you are doing...

(kalau benda tak baik tu stop la)

move on and believe that you can do it....

kesabaran tu penting...

dan sentiasa percaya Allah sentiasa bersama orang2 yang sabar...